Hey y'all, gonna release a shorter more intimate/talking to camera about life video on the channel at the end of this month, and a longer more involved video next month. Been learning Blender and a bunch of stuff making this one, so i hope it will be good. Lots of new free music coming out here soon. Honestly the truth is that I'm just pushing u...
2024-09-29 00:55:45 +0000 UTC View Posti have covid my brain not working... new video before end of month... missing making videos... heart aches for something real... i have had a lot of soup. going to take a nap. also, if you didn't notice there's around 100 minutes of new music in the royalty free folder as of earlier this month. XOXO, gossip girl
2024-08-24 20:39:56 +0000 UTC View PostI'll keep it short and sweet!
1. Still not financially stable, maybe even more cooked than before, but mentally 1000x better. Going to therapy, waking up and going to sleep at a regular time, eating more consistently, and developing a good work routine!
2. I just uploaded a bunch of music I've made for my stream to the royalty free t...
2024-04-28 19:29:36 +0000 UTC View PostHey y'all gonna cut straight to the point had a mental breakdown last night and considered doing some inpatient/psych ward vibes, I had to cancel an ad read for a video I was going to release today. I haven't heard from the brand whether I'll be able to push it or if it's definitively a cancellation but regardless I'm gonna have less money this ...
2024-03-31 20:08:37 +0000 UTC View PostHey I've been massively depressed for four months and I owe y'all a bunch of stuff because you've supported me anyways. I'm very sorry for my absence. I've been oscillating between lethargy and self sabotage, and haven't been all that productive or happy lately.
I've started streaming on the main channel every weeknight around 5-6, and it'...
2024-03-24 21:32:18 +0000 UTC View PostHere's a Dropbox link to 3 years of my music, and 2 cut albums. If you'd like to listen, start with Rose Garden as its the one I'm proudest of, and from there listen in any order. Of note: I cut one song from Rose Garden (track 13) because I'm waiting for a response from someone who featured on it to make sure they're okay with me releasing it h...
2023-12-01 02:21:22 +0000 UTC View PostHello folks! I've decided to keep working on the Palestine video for a while so it won't be out until next month - in the meantime I'll resume weekly content, starting with a new video by the end of the month. In addition I'll be back with weekly update videos, as those only stopped due to a depressive episode.
In the next few days I'll be...
2023-11-28 23:10:51 +0000 UTC View PostTwo reasons
1) palestine video has been stressing me tf out and I've been locked in an endless dance with the script trying to figure out the best way to say stuff
2) depressive episode + a nightmare trying to get my adderall prescription (unfortunately i can barely function if i don't have adderall) once i get that prescription y'al...
2023-11-21 02:19:06 +0000 UTC View PostI'm sick maybe with the flu video postponed for a few days gonna be in bed my venmo is @roramdin donate to my #soupfund #soupheads
2023-11-10 23:37:46 +0000 UTC View PostThis Week's Playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BFFzEJbWdQP6JeoY4uCQg?si=4524c1caaf7b476d&pt=f030b071810a5a113a47c0e19ffb8c6a
Movie Rec - Trainspotting
Ga...
2023-11-06 23:59:06 +0000 UTC View PostI'm working on some new graphics and music to use for the weekly updates, after that I'll film today's weekly update and get us back on track for normal uploads. <3 See y'all later today!
2023-11-06 20:34:53 +0000 UTC View PostI'm finishing up the edit right now! It's one of my fav vids I have ever made and I've already uploaded the 15+ royalty free tracks I made for it to the library, use in whatever creative projects you'd like (so long as you don't upload them somewhere that could result in them being copyrighted).
2023-10-31 20:15:14 +0000 UTC View PostHey y'all, I've really been enjoying making the weekly patron playlists for y'all to listen to. I'm wondering - what songs (if any) have you particularly responded to, and what type of stuff do you want me to put on there more? Let me know :-)
2023-10-25 22:14:42 +0000 UTC View PostMovie Rec: Dog Day Afternoon
Game Rec: Tchia
2023-10-24 20:48:41 +0000 UTC View PostIdk i wanted to talk to you guys about this. Please don't share this video around, I appreciate y'all.
2023-10-21 23:33:38 +0000 UTC View PostThis weeks update! Brief breakdown of last week's vid and this week's upcoming vid, plus a beat breakdown and a buncha recs! Links below for relevant stuff I mention <3
Patron Playlist 2: 2023-10-16 21:36:51 +0000 UTC View Post
Talking about a dream for seven minutes, reflection, and media recommendations hehe
This week's Patron Playlist!
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0CotQ0L519CRQJkuEJMQ2W?si=548fe7219...
2023-10-11 03:15:35 +0000 UTC View PostI made 7 or 8 original tracks for it so those will be uploaded tomorrow as well as the weekly update a day late 😖. I hope y'all like the video, it's one of my favorites fr!
2023-10-10 04:27:34 +0000 UTC View PostVideo today (monday) i hve been working all day im gonna wake up early tomorrow to finish it its 4am meow mwah
2023-10-09 11:16:25 +0000 UTC View Post
It's a good one though, here's the title card to stir up hype lol.
Hey folks! As we move into the second month of weekly content I figured it'd be a good idea to do a little monthly update on what I content I've promised. As a refresher, this month I owe y'all a bunch of unreleased music from my shelved albums. By the end of the year I owe y'all a one hour video essay on a topic of your choice and a big Zelda T...
2023-10-02 19:21:52 +0000 UTC View PostHey y'all- I've decided to try to move the ad that was going to be on the XQC video to next week's vid. If you subscribed to the Patreon because you wanted to supplement that loss, feel free to unsubscribe, but if you're down to keep supporting feel free to! I hope that video will be a more appropriate fit (nothing about drugs or addiction in th...
2023-09-21 17:50:29 +0000 UTC View Post<333
2023-09-16 18:30:04 +0000 UTC View PostEvery Monday from now on - small reflection on last video, announcement about next video, and whatever else is on my mind. I talk about the 2000$ goal and ask a question about what you guys want to hear, so please answer the question if you make it that far in the vid!
Gonna spend the rest of the work day starting the writing process and m...
2023-09-11 21:32:05 +0000 UTC View PostI logged on today because I'm planning on making a little reflection on last week's video only to find that not only have we passed 2,000$ monthly, we fucking SMASHED it by 200$??? First things first- THANK YOU. SO SO SO MUCH. I am unbelievably lucky to have this support. Second things second, this means that we've reached the goal for me to rel...
2023-09-11 19:44:41 +0000 UTC View PostNew Youtube video every Friday for the next year starting September 8th, along with music for the royalty free library. I also now will be doing "work days" instead of random work bursts, so I'll be checking my messages every morning around 10AM. <3
2023-09-01 22:30:16 +0000 UTC View PostHey y'all, I've been having a bit of a mental health episode. Alongside being very nearly broke I've been struggling with very dark thoughts, depressive and anxious bouts, and increasing isolation and loneliness. I continuously try to distract myself and I fear that may soon lead to overuse of alcohol/weed if I am not careful (it already has a b...
2023-08-14 21:18:35 +0000 UTC View Post