Taking a Break until September 1st
Added 2023-08-14 21:18:35 +0000 UTCHey y'all, I've been having a bit of a mental health episode. Alongside being very nearly broke I've been struggling with very dark thoughts, depressive and anxious bouts, and increasing isolation and loneliness. I continuously try to distract myself and I fear that may soon lead to overuse of alcohol/weed if I am not careful (it already has a bit). I've also been feeling constant stress, sadness, and guilt in relating to content creation, and my managers have told me to take the rest of the month off and try to not think about making videos at all until September 1st. Thanks to their help I should have enough money to last until then, and once I'm back I hope to build a healthier and stable relationship with making videos. I want to do my best to give you guys content that entertains y'all and makes your days better, but I cannot do that until I am not in a severely unstable and depressed state.
For the last year I've been trying to be stable enough to make content consistently but I fear that the guilt and anxiety of worrying about that near constantly has gotten to me. I know I say it a lot but I would not be able to do this for a living if it wasn't for your continued support and help, often overlooking my terrible consistency with perks and other Patreon content just because you want to prop up what I do. I cannot express enough gratitude for everything y'all have given me and I do not want to take it for granted (I fear my mind poison and fear and guilt surrounding content creation has made me jaded). Anywho, this is very temporary but I think I need it very badly. Thank you for reading this and I'll see y'all in a few weeks <3.
Sorry if this is repetitive or not phrased very well, I've just had a bit of a cry and my brain is all weird and also Ben Folds Five is playing?
Comments
Patreon is dumb af with sending out alerts to people, just seeing this. Hope you're taking the time you need. We're all rooting for you.
Jeremy Blake Leaird-Koch
2023-08-21 20:28:21 +0000 UTCHuman beings aren't perpetual motion machines and I hope this time away allows you some time to breathe and feel okay again. I'm not here for the consistency, I'm here because I like the cut of your jib and want to see you do well and do what you enjoy. Take care π
Grace
2023-08-16 23:17:50 +0000 UTCTreat yourself gently, weβll be here when youβre ready. Health comes first always x
Bemb
2023-08-15 09:54:25 +0000 UTCSending you all the love and gentleness. I contribute because you're an artist that I think is really thoughtful. I care that you are cared for. I care that you make things that you like. It is important to me that you are here. Consistency does not matter to me, and certainly not worth your health. π Please rest and surround yourself with care. Take longer if you need to.
Shalee CM
2023-08-15 04:57:44 +0000 UTCfeel this - been going through it too recently. something in the air ig. But hopefully you know that we all don't mind - your health is obviously more important. rest up!!!!
Strangedoingsinthenight
2023-08-14 22:42:52 +0000 UTCNever feel like you owe us, we support you because we want you to be supported, you've got this
Calypso
2023-08-14 22:41:16 +0000 UTCI know the ol "you're not the only one feeling this" is sometimes not very helpful. It often rings completely hollow when the Real Bad Times come around. But other times it's exactly what we need to hear. You're literally the third creative person I have patreonned to who is taking time off for mental health. Hell, you could say I've been recovering mental-health-wise this entire year so far. I think the aftermath of the global shutdown and the sustained stress took an absolutely huge bite out of a lot of people and many many of us are realizing that our mental health truly is something to cherish and nurture and put time and work into and that that isn't being "lazy" or "weak" or any of the other crap our brains tell us when it's not working right. And I think many other people who haven't experienced those struggles are beginning to see the true effects on those who do and hear it being talked about and making room for the idea that mental health difficulties ARE an illness that deserves treatment. And that those suffering ARE truly suffering and they need support, not judgement. So, of course. Take your time off seriously, do the hard work on your brain that needs doing, or just the proper BREAK it needs to recover. And don't forget that you are not alone. We all have value, and we all deserve just the same amount of recognition of that as anybody else. Much love from me and my cats to you, and to everybody else. Thank you.
Gamer Vane
2023-08-14 21:58:52 +0000 UTC<333
Ro Ramdin
2023-08-14 21:49:37 +0000 UTCDo you what you need. Thinking good thoughts for you.
Meg Graziano
2023-08-14 21:44:27 +0000 UTCily ro π«
COLORMIND.
2023-08-14 21:42:11 +0000 UTCTake the time you need , Ro! I know I'll be here.
SpitBites
2023-08-14 21:39:34 +0000 UTCGives me time to rewatch your videos and catch new jokes :) Enjoy your rest and take all the time you need!
π xxcole_gamingxx π
2023-08-14 21:32:31 +0000 UTCtake your time, we arenβt going anywhere π
amy
2023-08-14 21:29:38 +0000 UTCUnderstandable! Take all the time you need and I hope you can find a healthier and much more sustainable workflow soon!
Shannon Strucci
2023-08-14 21:25:03 +0000 UTCNot a problem in the slightest. This can be a grueling career and your worth as a creator is not linked to the frequency of your output :) Rest well!
Luck
2023-08-14 21:24:18 +0000 UTCput your own oxygen mask on first! we will be here when you get back :)
Olivia Bishop
2023-08-14 21:23:51 +0000 UTCThat's very kind of you to propose but I wouldn't feel comfortable taking any more money from y'all <3
Ro Ramdin
2023-08-14 21:23:35 +0000 UTCDo you have a ko-fi or paypal where people could also make one-time donations? Either way take care of yourself! No need to apologize!
Shannon Strucci
2023-08-14 21:20:43 +0000 UTC
