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Added 2024-09-29 00:55:45 +0000 UTCHey y'all, gonna release a shorter more intimate/talking to camera about life video on the channel at the end of this month, and a longer more involved video next month. Been learning Blender and a bunch of stuff making this one, so i hope it will be good. Lots of new free music coming out here soon. Honestly the truth is that I'm just pushing up really hard against the reality of being mentally ill and trying to figure out work (and how I can even do it). I'm just a total dumbass with money and time and everything lmao, probably something i'll work out as i age. Hope you're all well, sorry i've been in and out so much with youtube. i don't want to be, just a brain chemistry thing i guess. working on it in therapy and life and everywhere right now, so hopefully there will be progress soon. XOXO, Ro Ramdin.
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Ro, I’m watching your video right now and although I’m not a YouTuber, I still feel like I can relate SO much. I’ve been doing video and photo full time for over a decade and in ways it was my dream and in other ways it was an absolute nightmare. The best thing that ever happened to me was getting fired from my last job. I couldn’t keep up with the workload (which was an insane and completely unreasonable workload from my old boss) and I was severely depressed. I’ve been dealing with persistent depression disorder since I was a teenager (I’m 34 now) and THIS was BY FAR my darkest, DARKEST time. I had never wanted to not be alive the way I did then. But I got fired and then I massively switched gears. I’m now doing tech support. Which sounds like it would be a nightmare but I love this job so much and I am so much happier. And now I get to make videos and take photos when I WANT to instead of it being my job. Now I’m not saying this is the solution for you by ANY means. But I never in a million years thought I would be happy doing a job that’s no where related to my degree in photography. Tech support is the exact opposite haha. But I am so much happier. I have an amazing group of coworkers, my boss is SO kind and caring, I’m making a steady, even income, and I’m up for a promotion. I had recently told my therapist that this was really the first time I haven’t felt depressed since I was probably 24 years old. I guess my point is, don’t be afraid to try other things and find solutions in different places. I am also TERRIFIED of change. I hate it more than anything in this world. And when I got fired I was having panic attacks for weeks after. But this was the best thing that’s probably ever happened to me. Being creative, making art, doing what you love can be SO exhausting. And for me I thought that doing it for a living would make things better for me but it only made it worse. Listen to your body and what it’s telling you. Also, I reaaaallllyyyy feel for you on the adderall script. I need to call my pharmacy right now for a refill and I am DREADING it because the last year of refills has been a phone tag nightmare of me calling 20 different pharmacies once a month trying to get my refill. I’m ADHD and OCD as well (and through in a few more things like autism and POTS and I’m just a real fun bundle of problems) and it fucking sucks. And I have the same issue with vices and DoorDash and Gopuff are my biggest issues. So much money for convenience, but sometimes you need the convenience. Sorry for the long ass comment. Just know we all support you and just know your health, mental and physical, are the priority. And it’s okay to ask for help (I say also as a reminder to myself because I am terrible at asking for help, especially when it comes to money). And I know I don’t know you on a personal level, but we all love you and are here for you as much as we can be as an audience for an amazing creator.
Chelsea Nielsen
2024-10-05 16:09:18 +0000 UTCeverything will be oki Ro!! We miss you and are supporting you :3
Cam Is Not Okay
2024-10-01 21:28:43 +0000 UTCadhd and ocd combined SUCK so hard they're singlehandedly preventing me from attending uni. take as much time as you need girl!!
Cassie Samuel
2024-10-01 18:30:44 +0000 UTCi am ro ramdin enjoyer
orn
2024-10-01 06:44:40 +0000 UTC100% this!! mutual aid all the way
infinxx
2024-10-01 05:49:20 +0000 UTCi am of the opinion that people should be allowed to be mentally ill and struggle with finances and shit and not have to go under (SHOCKER) so i see this as some mutual aid supporting my favorite artist. lord knows the world needs Ro Ramdin in 2024. Also if you dont get back on your feet then who is gonna KO Dignan Round 1 in the ring? he's been training like a muh!
Chase Rumpca
2024-10-01 04:29:10 +0000 UTCfrom one mentally ill ocd ridden creative to another: healing and growing is the worst thing you'll ever go thru and it is so worth it. consistent creative output for work is hard! u always gotta prove urself! ah! but u have so got this, u've already accomplished a lot, and u don't have to do any of this forever. sometimes u just have to play the sims and build evil houses
hairbrushed
2024-10-01 04:28:30 +0000 UTCYOU LEARNED BLENDER!?!
Ike
2024-10-01 04:19:10 +0000 UTCYou're not a dumbass, Ro. You're a person doin' the absolute best you can right now <3 we'll be kind to you, but also remember to be kind to yourself. Take all the time you need. We all out here just figuring out life one day at a time. Wishing you the absolute best.
Patrice Berry
2024-09-29 18:11:55 +0000 UTCam v much looking forward to the new video, take your time :)
Nes
2024-09-29 12:55:32 +0000 UTCNo rush, Ro - look after yourself. 😊
Fern
2024-09-29 10:17:05 +0000 UTCFrom what I know with my therapy, just being on that journey is a good step. I’m having similar stuff where I want to be a YouTuber but I don’t post. Only have one video. But even that is a step. So think about how many steps you’ve taken! Not to be overly parasocial though, just hope you find your way on this journey. :)
Aria Tempest
2024-09-29 03:36:34 +0000 UTCthis is so relatable. it is an age thing, as someone who was in your shoes several years ago - you'll probably be having a much easier time with this kinda stuff by your later twenties. hang in there rose!!! looking forward to seeing whatever cool 3d stuff you've made in blender!
Samarie Braley
2024-09-29 03:18:07 +0000 UTCI forgot you were here
tie
2024-09-29 02:46:02 +0000 UTC🫶ro ramdin 4eva🫶
stringbeanakeman9
2024-09-29 02:43:40 +0000 UTCwish you all the best!
Maddie Dohmen
2024-09-29 02:03:02 +0000 UTCI always appreciate what you have to say on things, and I hope you find peace and balance through the journey. Good luck!
Mayday!
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