Last Chance

I'm gonna be real. I'm barely making each deadline. My method of producing art is slow and relies on pen and paper. I manually ink in the cel shading then remove the inked lines afterwards in photoshop. It's unwieldly and inefficient, but since I'm just a poor twit who stumbled into this line of 'work' I lack any real proper training. Even if I did make enough money to buy new equipment, I'd need years to re-learn everything.

This comic has failed. My comics in general have failed. I'm not much of a storyteller, and the only real draw (see what I did there?) is being able to create these dumb happy-go-lucky bondage world scenarios people like. The stories themselves, not so much. I started this Patreon making several hundred bucks more than I do now. It meant things were financially viable for me to focus on this as a means of supporting myself, but that's not the case any longer. I barely get by each month and as inflation and rent continues to skyrocket, I'm running out of hope.

I'm not having fun anymore. Every strip is a calculated risk I'm hoping won't leave me on the streets in a month's time. I was trying to hold out until maybe I could get disability for my mental health issues, but that's not going to happen. What I'm doing now is unsustainable financially and mentally. I'm 46. I'm epileptic, I have numerous health issues and I struggle with constant suicidal ideation. The me that could churn out comics every other day was a manic, early-middle-aged loon, while I am an old, depressed, miserable fuck.

I'm going to take one more shot at this with a new approach that I've flirted with before: Just drawing what everyone wants: Smut. From my observations, the idea of the Blackstone arc and stuff like Collar(ed)6 is more engaging than what I actually produce. Largely because I get caught up in narratives and 'talking heads' and that's not what anyone is looking for from me.

So for the month ahead, I'm going to draw 'scenarios' which consist of me just drawing smut with maybe a little bit of narration at the top and bottom to set the stage. If that. Rubberized, owned Sixx getting plowed by Butterfly and her rubberdrones at a convention? Why not? Blackstone just riding her ponygirls around and making them perform sexually for her? Sure thing. Thixx pounding her slave's ass into oblivion without the need for a larger setup? You got it. No need for narrative build-ups, no need for convoluted superhero shit, just what everyone wants: My characters engaging in sex and bdsm. And if that fails? Well, there's a warehouse up the street my partner used to work at before cancer wrecked her body, so I guess I'll head up there.

See y'all Monday with porn. Much love.