Notice: Patreon Unlaunch (temp)

As much as I hate to say this, Patreon has been a stressful journey for me. Having a monthly deadline to complete work might be easy for other content creators, however for me it isn't. And this month it took a severe toll on my mental health to the point I've had to see the doctor for hair loss, and because of this I know right now I need to stop and take action before it gets worse. I completely broke down today because I know I've kept people waiting and that was never my intention. While I've nearly completed owed work now, I didn't anticipate I would struggle this hard and the stress has actually impacted on my ability to draw, which is bad. It feels more like a chore lately than something I enjoy.

Each month I get a number of big commissions which take up all of my time. These include seven step full colour sequences, or long page comic sequences, and I thought I could balance those alongside Patreon rewards but it's proving far more difficult than I anticipated. I'm by no means a fast worker, so my pictures can take me days to weeks to complete and as a result, I get virtually no time for myself anymore and it completely drains me to have to spend seven days a week only drawing for others while getting very little back for it. This cuts into rewards as well, as I cannot complete them within a month and it's so unfair to those that have supported me. So as it stands, commissions are currently more viable for me as an artist right now and I've been horribly undercharging myself for the amount of work I have to do. Being on a monthly deadline to submit regular content that takes me a lot of time puts me under a lot of pressure and I just need to take a step back for a while and recuperate. I really need a break from here.

That is primarily why my personal artwork and comics have been scarce lately on my main account and uploads are slow, because I have very little time to draw what I want to and it's often always pushed to the backburner as I have other work to complete first for clients. They order big things which take me a long time to do. With things constantly building and not having enough time each month to complete them, I've made a decision that I need to put a stop to it now. I need that time to finish what remains without the added stress of more work piling on top.

While I've nearly completed all due commission rewards as previously mentioned, I know it is time for me to make a change. I do have comic ideas I want to share, but for now I think my best option is to bow out of Patreon for a little while, until I can catch up to where I need to be. I need to get that headspace of not being completely stressed out back. If commissions continue to go well they will be an exclusive focus instead of a subscription service. I have a lot of WIPs sitting on my computer I haven't been able to complete due to working for others non-stop and as an artist, I need that time for myself and to draw what I want to draw because it turns drawing into a source of stress for me rather than something I enjoy. I haven't had the time to draw any personal fanart or things I like for months now and I personally can't keep going this way. I just feel like a robot.

Once again, I apologize. Right now Patreon is just not something I can balance on top of having to do big commissions. I can only pick one path as it's too much work for me currently and I have no help with my work. I also want to focus on personal animations and I cannot do that because I have no time to with copious workloads.

I do thank you to those that have supported me up until now, and I will continue to finish what I need to complete. I just really need a long break away from here, to focus on my mental health, to get remaining work complete and off my shoudlers and to finally have time for work I want to do that's not Patreon exclusive, like fanart etc.

As mentioned before, I will happily give full refunds.  

Please feel free to talk to me on Discord, or message me through here, if this is an issue, or if something needs resolving. Otherwise, I will finish up what remains with owed rewards and Patreon will be unlaunched. I will leave this up for a few days so you have notice and I can message out too.

Mudos x