Just Voicing What’s Been Weighing on My Mind (No story tg)

- No Fame, Just Me and My Stories

- - - I will release the Patreon poll story that was supposed to be released two days ago tomorrow or at least 12 hours from the release of this story.

- If I feel cringe-worthy, I'll delete this. xD

- Just sharing my honest feelings. Simply voicing the thoughts weighing on my mind (I write what is bothering my mind to make my mind clearer xd)

Hello, I'm misterfande. I'm here just to express my feelings about writing TG stories. I'm not here to make you "members" love me or make you like me.

I just want to share why I've been uploading TG stories less frequently. At first, I was idealistic, just wanting to create TG stories without making money or anything like that. At first, I was idealistic about not making money, but over time, I became envious of other people, especially those on Depressedwombat or other Patreon stories, who were earning over $100 per month.

Initially, I only had a $1 monthly membership to see how people would support or at least like my story.

But to get my story liked, or at least one person to like it and support me monthly, it took me about a month after creating my Patreon to build a membership.

And after I had that one person, I initially fantasized about my membership growing exponentially and started adding other tiers like $3, $5, $10, and $15.

I was crazy about creating stories, even producing a story every 3-2 days at my peak.

I didn't consider the consequences, such as what would happen if my family found out I was creating a story about a man becoming a woman and that the story was 18+.

That's when I started being cautious. I was afraid my family would find out I was creating stories like this, and my stories took at least 2-5 hours to create (I rarely use AI).

I hoped that by not using AI, people would appreciate my work. If I used AI, at least my English would be better than translating from my native language to English using Google Translate.

And then people started liking me on DeviantArt, but the people who truly supported me were even less than 10. Fun fact: my peak Patreon income was $8 per month, and my membership members seemed to give me cold looks. I never received any comments or likes on Patreon.

Then I compared it to people who use AI to create tg images. They even make more than my entire patreon income combined.

For me, my idealism began to waver. I wondered why they were making money when I was trying to write using my brain and heart.

I started to despair. When new people started using AI, For example, MysticPleasuresGirl makes more than all of my Patreon income combined.

I initially hoped to earn over $200 per month to at least ease the burden on my family from writing stories.

But reality hit me. No matter how hard I tried, even if I wrote for 3-5 hours (plus 10 minutes on Google Translate), at my peak, I didn't get any memberships. I was hoping for someone to subscribe for $5, $10, or $15. At that point, I started to realize that maybe it was because I was using Google Translate. People might still like me, but not my membership.

No matter how hard I try, maybe if I translate it using Google Translate, people will only like my work but not my Patreon membership.

And most importantly, one of my family members asked me, "Why are you sleeping so late?" I wanted to prove it by showing my Patreon, but then I remembered that my total Patreon income doesn't even compare to her monthly income, and I didn't even dare reply that my income was less than $10. I could only write at night.

From then on, I realized that I'm someone whose primary language isn't English, so people only like me but don't support me financially. For example, on DeviantArt, I have a lot of likes, up to 100+, but fewer than 300+ watchers.

So I started to be self-aware. I wrote less often and didn't think too much about my TG stories. And I started focusing on real-world income, which kept me busier, reducing the number of TG stories I wrote. No matter how much you write for hours, it won't earn me more than a month's income in the city where I live.

Another important reason is that when I use my phone for a long time, it turns itself on and off, and it often crashes, like the Play Store won't open anything, Google or Chrome won't work.

Fun fact: my income this month is $4 per month. Sorry to tell you. I'm not expecting you to upgrade your membership or feel sorry for me. I just want you to keep watching the stories I will produce (I will try harder to write them).

At first, I thought my membership would involve likes, comments, or Patreon polls, or at least my comments would provide spiritual support.

I've written 82 stories (102-20 poll stories). No one has commented or offered spiritual support.

I was hoping for comments, to the point where I had to at least share a true story, like going to another city, to get some feedback.

However, if there were likes or comments, I would be full of enthusiasm to write.

To get people to comment or offer spiritual support, I created a Discord account, but no one came, which made my passion for writing start to fade.

I just wanted to be noticed.

Thank you, Mi...z (I'm censoring some words, maybe people don't like it when I write her full name) for supporting me since October. I still wonder why anyone has supported me for that long.

So I will keep writing even though my writing duration will start to be reduced and write some short stories that don't burden my mind for hours.