Feraline

Feeling fine

Added 2022-05-29 20:23:53 +0000 UTC

Paisley ponderings ~

More and more I feel myself settling into a flow of blossoming authenticity.

I used to shame myself all the freaking time. For so many needless things. I couldn't be too "much". It's as if I felt like I had to be small, insecure, quiet... because of course, as a young girl the world tells you that you're awfully full of yourself if you felt comfortable in your skin and carried yourself happily as such! The things that we're taught are negative parts of being a woman huh? The unhealthy thoughts that therefore manistest from a young age...

We're told it's undesirable and we're convinced it's vain for women to behave confidently. Society deems it to be conceited. Which honestly just makes it easier to oppress us, if we're moulded to believe we have to be fuelled on self deprecative weakness to be considered good people.

So when in the fragility of my younger days, I also fell victim to this mentality and used to shame others as well as myself. For anything that could resemble vanity, without realising there is a vast difference between healthy self confidence and arrogant self importance.

Knowing your worth is not the same as placing your worth above others. In a world that shapes young girls into competitively hating on each other, it's taken me a long time to realise that the girl who loves herself is not your enemy. The world that teaches you not to is.

📷 ~ Softglow Photography