muplur

No shame in accepting!

Added 2021-03-01 05:56:07 +0000 UTC

Hey Guys,

Time for the untimed post. I believe making a post may a calm me a little.

Last week, not much productive. Physically I am little tired since I skipped more than half of the meals last week. Mentally I am more tired since I haven't done any game work but only practicing heads and faces like a real mental. Mind eventually gone into depression again. too depressed to eat or taking bath. Last week was a mess. Yesterday I went full offline to calm myself. Didn't work much as it used to be.
Today morning I picked myself up to clean PC. One achievement after a week.
I was thinking what would caused me the depression. Could it be that I promised to give the game on November, December, January, February. Still the game is not done yet. Nikolaj sent me the dialogues though. But there were some misunderstanding in the game, so we are redoing couple of events.
I want to let this get off of my mind. XIX is not coming soon. I just wanted to say this. If I say this, maybe my depression reduce and I can focus on the game work. Don't believe I will give the game soon, So I can work on the game. I will give the game whenever it gets ready. I am going to slack off and do nothing, play games, watch pon, nothing. You guys gets nothing this month. I am just going to do my nothing. If nothing is the best thing I can do to make myself happy, then that's what I am going to do. You guys go celebrate with anything that makes you happy too. Including me, I want everyone to be happy :)

P.S. I am not dying or quitting. If you have something to motivate me, Kindly try it. I want to release the update in this month or at least next month. but the depression is too hard to fight alone.

Peace,
MUPLUR