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even after the fight, i’m still yours

the silence feels heavier than the fight itself. the words we threw at each other still linger in the air, sharp edges that neither of us meant, things said in the heat of the moment, things we both wish we could take back. i let it sit for a while, let us both breathe, let the weight settle instead of trying to push through it too soon. but after a while, i go looking for you. not to argue, not to prove a point, just to find you. because no matter how bad it gets, no matter how much we hurt each other in moments like this, the only thing worse than fighting is being apart. i find you, and for a second, i do not know what to say, but then i do, because it is the only thing that has ever mattered. i love you. i am not going anywhere. we can figure the rest out, work through it, take as long as we need, but that will never change. i reach for you, needing to close the distance, needing to remind you that even when we break apart, we will always find a way back.

even after the fight, i’m still yours

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# NO, YOU 🃏🔄✨🦄

unholy babygirl

NO YOU 🃏🔄

Alana

No, you 🃏🔄

unholy babygirl

No you 🥺💖

Alana

and this person here ⬆️ has been my rock and my safe haven thanks to you, clitaniel 🫣🥺

unholy babygirl

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

Alana

I’m still trying to catch up on the audios, and I chose this one for today 💀 I had an inkling as to what it might be, yet I’m still a sobbing mess 🥺 My BPD and crippling fear of abandonment are honestly debilitating at times, and this audio was so validating and soothing in a way 🥺 Thank you 🥺

unholy babygirl

Indeed it is like this.

unholy babygirl

I don’t even need PMS to lose it, my BPD is enough 😹 And that’s every day, so it’s even worse woot woot 😹

unholy babygirl

Crying to this 😭

Chloe

Same…I continue to not only not rise early like I wanted but instead sleep in

Caitlin

Same here guys 💀 I fucked up this morning and missed my alarm 🙃, actually, I don’t even know if I set it. But, uhhhhh, shit, is the right word rn.

Rose

Same here. I woke up dazed and confused 🥴

Destiny

not well lol

BeforeKnightFalls

How did daylight savings treat you this go round k?? 🧡

Destiny

RIGHT?! I sweat when I'm nervous and this situation would make me moist as fuck. 😂😭

Kickis

I also get the clam hands when I’m nervous 😂

Sassypants

I loved the sweetheart SO MUCH🥺❤️

Aiza

@Caitlin Oh yes, unhinged is the right word. PMS is so frustrating cause it messes with your instincts and rational thinking so bad. You feel like you're acting completly reasonable and the world is just ... against you. And then a week later you realise "Oh 😳 ... I was hormonal crazy person". 😅😂😁

Kickis

@Rose YES! 😍👏

Kickis

Absolutely love this😍

emma

In every variation, either sfw or nsfw, it’s my favourite nickname 🥰

Sassypants

That “sweetheart” omg I cried…

Caitlin

Honestly this would be so healing and inspiring to listen to because I can get unhinged myself and see red so it is like something I need to hear

Caitlin

How did I miss this!? I can’t imagine him being mean or hurtful

Caitlin

@Kickis I requested something like that last week so I only hope we get it 🤞🏼

Rose

Same. Also him reaffirming that he isn’t going anywhere. That he won’t leave her. That she is loved. That’s hugely reassuring to hear.

Sassypants

Him not yelling and giving reassurance did wonders for my nervous system and my anxiety

Rose

Oh yeah PMS can make me unhinged…I like this addition 😂

Sassypants

OH MY GOD - what if it's a PMS one? The hormones made us lose it bc of something silly like ... he bought the wrong type of ice cream or forgot to get an ingredient for dinner. We cool off and then we find him in is office and is all like "I'm sorry for being an hormonal mess ... I didn't mean it". 😂❤️

Kickis

Oh fuck yes! A reverse comfort after a fight would be so good - we were a little bit too fiesty with him. 😁😅❤️

Kickis

the gentleness of his voice 🥺🩷

madeline

I’ve listened to this many times since you posted it. It’s so raw and so real, it hits hard but I love the way you make up with her. Making up after arguments are so important and you are always so caring, understanding, and loving through it all❤️‍🩹

Aiza

Great audio as always K! I love how safe & loved you make her feel. A reverse comfort of this would be interesting!

Sassypants

I adore the way K highlights the making up, the aftercare of the argument. These are the moments that matter ❤️

Carrie

Can we get the make up sex from the fight!

aria johnson

I was fine until you said “sweetheart” with such care & love & then I was 😭

Sassypants

"Just to find you." I love your way and when you told her that you love her as soon as you sat down.. Like her, I almost said thank you. 😭😭

Ss

I’ve listened to this a few times. Crying in your arms and the kisses🥺 literally crying

Aiza

💋💋💋 I would love it so much to also get the fight... The tension, the misunderstandings, the hurting.... 🥺

Michaela Ameise

Remind yourself that you're the strong one. If you're dealing with a person who has zero ability to see your point of view or goes immediately into defence mode you know their weakness. Also you have to evaluate your boundaries with this person and what you can and cannot expect from them. ❤️

Kickis

although these audios make me cry i love them sm. may love like this find all of us <3

⋆. 𐙚trina ⊹ ࣪ ˖

First time listening to one of the make up audios and can say I’ve never cried so much listening to an audio. Is this what healthy conflict resolution is like?

Caro

Also the clammy hand comment made this human furnace emosh. 🥹😭❤️

Kickis

I love that we never get the fight, but we always get the making up. ❤️

Kickis

911 is such a good show!

Sassypants

Can I request that the listener can sing and K wasn’t aware of that? So he complimentes after complimentes her?

Miya

I’ve already cried over Murdoch Mysteries and 9-1-1 today but lets fuckin go i guess 🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭

bunny

Right! It’s been so long😣

Valen.x

Bawling my eyes out

Pame🌜

conflict tag, it’s so good to see you beloved <3

bev

That happens all the time to me. But deep down you know you did it because the other person can't leave their ego and their pride. You are the adult who knows how to deal healthy with it. Just remind yourself that you had to deal with someone not mature enough to admit their fault. You didn't let yourself down, you just were dealing with someone immature and you had to do it before it got the best of your mental health and inner peace. If you were to wait for an apology it would have been a looooong time of inner conflict and you just had to walk away. So no, you didn't let yourself down, see it as you did it for your own good to say like "yeah, right, okay, sorry, bye" instead of waiting for something that may never had happened. Sending hugs. It's difficult, but it happens 🤍

Pame🌜

yall i just had to apologize for a fight i didn’t cause. tips to just move forward and pretend i didn’t let myself down ?

lexoxle

It’s time for me to sit and let that conflict tag hit me in the feels

Lani

The description…..got me straight in the heart. “but after a while, i go looking for you. not to argue, not to prove a point, just to find you. because no matter how bad it gets, no matter how much we hurt each other in moments like this, the only thing worse than fighting is being apart.” And that’s how you know you have something special with someone. 🧡

Destiny

I haven’t listened yet. Just reading the description made me nervous. I know K will be caring & soothing as always but 😢

Sassypants

Same. There was a lot of emotional abuse in my home growing up, so I never learned healthy conflict resolution. These audios are painful, but healing ❤️‍🩹

Sassypants

and and and "the only thing worse than fighting is being apart" absolutely bawling

Ally

The description has me😭❤️‍🩹 this is going to hurt😔 peep the crying tag

Aiza

As someone who suffered a lot of verbal and physical abuse growing up, this heals something in me you have no idea. Because I never knew arguments without yelling and physical altercation. Thanks. 🤍 It means a lot.

Pame🌜

I love “i go looking for you. not to argue, not to prove a point, just to find you.” 🥹

Sassypants

FAWK, a conflict audio 😩😭🥺🤌🏻 also I’m not sorry 🌸 linger 🌸 😌

unholy babygirl

just reading the description made my heart hurt

Ally

Omgggggg excited

Kim

Why is crying a tag K? 😭

Sassypants


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