Doc Destructo

Mon/Fri: Coming This Week!

Whoops, forgot about this, it's important.

After a minor medication hiccup (a daily brain med that's fast uptake, mixed with my own mutant metabolism, turns out to mean "no, actually, I can't miss a day of wellbutrin") I have remembered to do my end of the week thing, at the beginning of the week. This is not much of an...

Mon/Fri: The River and the Road

Design Project Incoming

You spend a while plinking at trying to do a thing, thinking about what you actually intend to do with it. I don't make it a habit of just trying to make stuff work if I can't put my full heart behind a thing, because that's how I wore myself out in games the first time around. BASIC is the resul...

SCRIPTS!: Narratives of Disaster - Hulk Hogan, and the Wrath of the Heartbreak Kid

Time to get back on the horse more formally, no more submerged and stealthy Doc. This is where I start knocking down trees and doing more here, again. So here's the script as it stands for the forthcoming episode of Narratives of Disaster, about the time Hulk Hogan did his Hulk Hogan Thing a little too hard, to a much better in-ring wrestler tha...

Mon/Fri - Ready Go

That was a nice break. Time to not do that for a while.

Creativity is a process where any progress can be considered worthwhile as long as something is produced of it. This is something I've long thought and am now forcing myself into the proper practice of. In other words, watch this space, because the man is now in mo...

It's Done

Thank you all for believing in me.

-G

SHOW YOUR WORK, DOC

Been a while since I did one of these, but I also wanted to get it out there on Youtube in a more direct fashion.

Yes, it will be done by the end of this year. And it's gonna be great.

Mon/Fri - The Plan

It's time to get this show on the road, for real.

I gotta get serious, I have to get moving. 2019 is too late for me to say when I'm going to do what, so here's what I have on my plate and planned for the next little while:

December

Gamewrecks 2 is nearing completion at a startling rat...

Mon/Fri - Contempt of Game

Start Even Handed, Just End Up Angry

Gamewrecks 2 is close, maybe coming this week even. I'm into the phase where the main thing I'm encountering is the part where I'm trying to keep my superlatives leashed, but it's hard. It's hard, because holy hell, this game. This game is like having a boxer with soft hands trying to open ...

Mon/Fri: The Final Stretch

No choice now but finish the year strong

I'd rather not wax philosophical about how life is difficult with a mental illness, and how sometimes when you succeed at day to day as a partner and adult, you're not left with much motivation to work on things you should want to do. That part, the wanting to do? It's there, and that m...

Mon/Fri: No Lost Muses, But a Change for a Week

I have many things that I can do...

Adrienne was out of the house for this past week, having gone to the States for Thanksgiving. This mean I went back towards less intensive projects because I just felt a bit, I dunno, quieter? I wrote A Strange Wilderness stuff for the first time in a long time, because I really do love that...

Mon/Fri: No Harm in Doing Things Over

I think I found the source of the problem.

At the end of this week, I've redone and re-recorded the 4th chapter of Gamewrecks, because frankly, it wasn't doing it for me, and I needed to get the lead out of it in order to feel good editing it together. It's much better now, and I'm much happier with it. Considering that I've g...

Mon/Fri: That Was Refreshing

The seasons change and the world changes with it.

Gamewrecks 2 in time for Christmas is my new goal. It came to me when I was looking at yesterday, after getting what I needed to say about the new Warframe update out into the world. Which had a really good way of making me feel like what I was doing important, by the way. Watc...

We All Lift, Together.

Yeah, 'eskapape, ettupuipui' yourself, asshole, tell it to my union rep.

The story starts with a floor boss of a job site trying to keep her people safe from the management, by keeping everyone's heads down and voices quiet. This doesn't work, because not everyone can do that, and so that head gets lopped off, and that voice g...

Mon/Fri: Got It

MOTIVATION.

This week was an injection of energy for someone that wants to critically analyze games, because holy hell, what on Earth was The Quiet Man??

Anyway, I feel accomplished. Gonna go feel like I got something done, instead of feeling like I fell down at the job. Keep the momentum running.

[ G A M E W R E C K S ] - Tender Loving Care - Chapter 3

This is the sort of game where you want to declare your terms like an aircraft carrier drops anchor.

I did it, I did the thing, with the badgame. I hope you enjoy, because now the fun part really begins...

Don't Play The Quiet Man, But Do Observe Him

What do you mean 'Square-Enix Published This'??

The Quiet Man is a cinematic experience experimental gameplay that manages to mishandle its themes so poorly that the deafness of its titular character is portrayed as both a superpower and unrealistically limiting factor, while at the same time only being vaguely discernible as ...

Mon/Fri: Hey, Hi, Still Here

Despite Last Week's Appearances

Mental Health is an ongoing issue for those who deal with it, up to and including dealing with things you don't realize that you're doing. Aversion is a thing that I have an issue with, because it tends to piggyback on self-care, a thing you've got to do if you want to be healthy. Except being w...

[G A M E W R E C K S] - Tender Loving Care - Patron Cut, Part 1

You've waited long enough. Here's the first chapters of Gamewrecks 2. Despite the time it took to get out, I'm proud of what I have, and the momentum that I'm now building once again.

Mon/Fri: The Sound of One Head Knocking Against Itself

Welcome to the Nation of Self Focus

Focus. This is a thing that I am good at when I can do it. The problem is, getting knocked out of it. This was a week to recover from having my focus knocked loose and shut off. I think it worked. You'll know later, possibly later today, but perhaps tomorrow. Thank you all for hanging on. Potential tur...

Ow, My Brain

There Was Supposed to Be Some Sort of Video Soon, Right?

Emotions are difficult things, and at this point in my life I'm starting to realize they're the only real effective thing at hurting me. Unfortunately, we live in the wrong time to be pretty unfazed by physical aggression (which is what I'm actually good at), so I lose a lot of sle...

Mon/Fri: Okay, So

CONTENT PENDING, PLEASE WAIT

Hi. I'm gonna release the first bit of Gamewrecks 2 for you this weekend. But it's also Canadian Thanksgiving, and I'm going to my folks' for it, who are a slight journey away, there and back. So let me eat a bunch of walkbird biomass and tasty bread-and-herb-based filling first, and then I'll get ...

Narratives of Disaster - The Man Who Couldn't Not Punch Low

Surprise. It's content.

Content Warning:  Real Combat Sports Violence

There's a lot of stuff I like to talk about that aren't games. Many of these things are unmitigated trainwrecks. I will discuss these things that are wrecks but not Gamewrecks in short in between editing the latest episode of that, because y...

Mon/Fri: Lots Done, Lots to Go

Just because you hear a lot of kicking and shouting and furniture moving doesn't mean this Frankenstein isn't getting more and more alive.

Ever had a project that you feel you ripped a big chunk out of with your effort in a week? Ever have that Project square their shoulders at you, despite having that chunk ripped out of it, ...

Mon/Fri: Things Are Extremely Happening

Picture a man running into a room excitedly shouting, PRETTY MUCH HALF DONE. Now picture that man also having resolved to be more realistic with his expectations of output and seasoned by just what sort of bull's shit this editing business can be sometimes, and you've also got an individual that's willing to tell you that next week would be a mirac...

[ G A M E W R E C K S ] 2 - Preview

I told you I was working on it. It just took longer than I thought yesterday to get this done.

Mon/Fri: Somewhat On Track

There's Something Moving Around, It's Close

I am looking at an open DaVinci Resolve Window. It has a video in it, or the makings of one. This means that sometimes this weekend, you will see the earliest state of Gamewrecks Episode 2. I'm sort of in a weird state still, but I'm also working on something, and well.

I more ...

Mon/Fri: How Do You Deal With This Week?

I tried to put a video here, and then something really unexpected happened.

The thing about being peripheral to someone else's tragedy is that it feels really lousy to say that you're okay after having been through it. Because it wasn't my father that died, it was a stranger's; the stranger just came to me for help, because he...

Mon/Fri: Whoops, Vacation?

I think that's what that was?

Not a lot got done this week, and this is why this is happening today instead of tomorrow. There was a lot of entertaining guests and a lot of emotional recovery from having people in my space for long periods, and a lot of helping my partner, who's the one who pays the bills. Which is why this is...

Mon/Fri: Research Complete

So it turns out, there was a story there.

Gamewrecks 2 is going to be extremely good. I've come to this conclusion first after being satisfied with how the trailer turned out, and now, I'm coming to the same conclusion after having done the legwork on Tender Loving Care.

This game. This fucking game, is unbelievable.

Mon/Fri - Just You Wait

Things are happening, even when at first they don't seem so.

This past week was a week for catching up elsewhere, and also getting a few ideas out of my head. This coming week is one for Gamewrecks, which I'm going to really challenge myself on in a sustainable sort of way. It's one thing to go for broke on a project and reall...