They always call it madness. They say I’m broken, dangerous, unstable. Perhaps I am. But I’m also something else - devoted. You were never meant for the outside world. You were always meant to belong, to bend, to be still under the weight of someone who truly sees you. I watched you. I waited. And now you’re here, soft and trembling in the...
2025-05-29 19:05:04 +0000 UTC View PostYou copied the signals. Line by trembling line, you etched them in your book, your skin, your dreams. You didn’t know what you were calling, not really. But I knew. I was listening. And now that you’ve crossed the threshold, there is no slipping back. You summoned permanence, and I will give it. My name, carved into your marrow. My voice, hu...
2025-05-29 01:32:55 +0000 UTC View PostRight. I’ve been trying to be a bit more present lately. Slightly less ghost-shaped. Slightly more “person who posts updates”. "Trying" being the key word. Effort has occurred. Scheduling has not.
Anyway. I’ve been posting these little updates, usually full of mild progress, unfinished thoughts, and what some might generously call ...
2025-05-29 01:00:01 +0000 UTC View Post
Right. So. If you ever want a real-time chart of my mood during the editing process, just look at the filenames. They start as mild, rational, full-sentence things. Words. Thoughts. Hope.
Then.
Then you’ll notice a shift.
No more titles. Just untitled-009.wav.
That’s when I’ve entered mild frustration
2025-05-29 00:35:29 +0000 UTC
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On a scale somewhere between “gently salted focaccia” and “the Utah Salt Flats in full sun with a mild wind of despair,” how salty are you when your computer locks up mid-edit?
Personally, I go from “hmm” to “the sea itself has nothing on me” in about six seconds.
Then I sit there, hands hovering above the keys, radiatin...
You didn’t hear it, did you? That little burst of sound before the silence. That was me, protecting what’s mine. You always sleep so deeply, like you trust me completely, how sweet. I stayed quiet after, whispered my love while I cleaned the mess. You never even stirred. And now here we are, in the calm I carved for us. No more her, no more ...
2025-05-28 19:59:37 +0000 UTC View PostYou chased me for months, didn’t you? Through neon gutters and blood-slicked alleys, always just behind, always hoping you'd be enough. But you were never the hunter, only the bait. You delivered yourself to me, spine first. And now, you rest here, across my lap, still and soft while I finish what you started. The city thought you would save i...
2025-05-28 18:34:02 +0000 UTC View PostHello again from the land of quietly muttered audio edits and disproportionate emotional responses to waveform spikes.
Lately I've been experimenting with a thing I'm calling "mini-mastering" which, in practice, means lobbing a few trusted tools at my audio files and hoping for the best. The idea is to get all the layered sounds to sit tog...
2025-05-28 17:08:33 +0000 UTC View PostRight. So. Audio days are being shunted back by one day because, surprise to no one, I remain a functional disaster and apparently "doing audio" joins the ever-growing list of Adult Things My Brain Can’t Quite Grasp.
Turns out, remembering to actually remove the noise and, you know, save the thing is... somewhat essential. Who k...
2025-05-27 21:23:04 +0000 UTC View PostNow. I know. It’s a small thing. A tiny, fiddly, insignificant little design choice. And surely it was not done with the express purpose of ruining my life or triggering full Wayward rage mode.
But whoever decided to start permanently tethering bottle lids to their bottles is, respectfully, at the top of my shit list.
Who hurt you....
2025-05-26 15:41:41 +0000 UTC View PostHow would you feel about short film and TV reviews. Working title, in my head at least, is I watched it so you don’t have to, but you might anyway. Not because they’re bad, necessarily, but because I have... views. And no filter. And a slightly unhealthy attachment to certain fictional characters who probably should...
2025-05-26 14:36:37 +0000 UTC View PostJust when you thought it was safe. She returns.
Or rather, like the early bus, I’ve shown up the moment you gave up and started walking home. It’s raining. The wind’s made off with your umbrella. You’re already soaked. And yet. Hello.
Let’s not hover awkwardly in the doorway.
Tomorrow (Tuesday...
2025-05-26 14:11:41 +0000 UTC View PostStarted recording this about five times, still opened with a dramatic pause. Back home, mostly upright, mildly coherent. It's not a big dramatic thing, just some catching up, a bit of honesty, and me trying not to sound like a Victorian ghost.
2025-03-31 12:57:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Do you think destiny is a path you walk, or a cage you can’t escape?
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You followed me all the way out here? You must be braver than I thought, or maybe just a little bit reckless.
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EVENT: I slipped away from the masquerade ball for a bit of quiet (and perhaps to see if anyone interesting would follow). It seems I ...
2025-03-05 01:23:01 +0000 UTC View Post
On a scale from ‘innocent angel’ to ‘criminal muppet,’ where do you think you’d land?
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If I tell you a secret every time we cuddle, you might just know everything about me by the end of the day. But where’s the fun in that? Maybe I’ll make you work for it.
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EVENT: A playful cuddle session evolves into ...
2025-03-05 00:12:01 +0000 UTC View PostDo you think destiny is a path you walk, or a cage you can’t escape?
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You followed me all the way out here? You must be braver than I thought, or maybe just a little bit reckless.
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EVENT: I slipped away from the masquerade ball for a bit of quiet (and perhaps to see if anyone interesting would follow). It seems I ...
2025-03-04 09:43:01 +0000 UTC View PostOn a scale from ‘innocent angel’ to ‘criminal muppet,’ where do you think you’d land?
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If I tell you a secret every time we cuddle, you might just know everything about me by the end of the day. But where’s the fun in that? Maybe I’ll make you work for it.
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EVENT: A playful cuddle session evolves into ...
2025-03-04 09:21:01 +0000 UTC View Post
If I told you that real love feels more like a soft jumper than a suit of armour, would you believe me?
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So you want romance, huh? Well, lucky for you, I’ve got a heart full of love and all the time in the world to show you just how wonderful you are.
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EVENT: We're taking it slow, enjoying each other’s comp...
2025-03-02 21:11:00 +0000 UTC View Post
If you could only keep one: your freedom or my cuddles,which would you lie about choosing?
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I could get lost in this, you know. In you. Maybe I already have.
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EVENT: Keeping you close, whispering sweet nothings, and not letting you slip away, because, let's be honest, where would you rather be?
SETTING:&n...
2025-03-02 20:32:01 +0000 UTC View PostIf I told you that real love feels more like a soft jumper than a suit of armour, would you believe me?
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So you want romance, huh? Well, lucky for you, I’ve got a heart full of love and all the time in the world to show you just how wonderful you are.
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EVENT: We're taking it slow, enjoying each other’s comp...
2025-03-02 03:35:01 +0000 UTC View PostIf you could only keep one: your freedom or my cuddles,which would you lie about choosing?
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I could get lost in this, you know. In you. Maybe I already have.
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EVENT: Keeping you close, whispering sweet nothings, and not letting you slip away, because, let's be honest, where would you rather be?
SETTING:&n...
2025-03-02 03:21:00 +0000 UTC View Post.
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https://www.youtube.com/live/9or061f8hO8
Going live soon, and, shockingly, I find myself once again in need of an adultier adult. Any volunteers? No? Fair.
Come keep me company while I pretend to have it all together.
Is it still romantic if you confess your love while running for your life?
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I could say it again, but then you’d get all smug about it. And I simply cannot allow that to happen. So, I’ll just stand here, grinning like an idiot, and hope you got the message the first time.
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EVENT: An attempted lo...
2025-02-24 03:23:00 +0000 UTC View Post
If you refuse to admit you miss someone, but you still sigh dramatically while thinking about them, does it count?
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I am not saying I miss you, but your pillow is on life support and the duvet has been crying in the corner for hours. I, however, am perfectly fine, completely unaffected, and absolutely not hugging your hoodie like ...
2025-02-24 00:32:01 +0000 UTC View PostLive in a bit (22:00 GMT), so, be honest… secret superpower or just barely functioning? No judgement, I promise (mostly).
Come keep me company while I attempt to act like a coherent human. Should be fun.
https://www.youtube.com/live/xMlhVLY2gcY
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2025-02-23 21:41:40 +0000 UTC View Post
Has anyone ever successfully avoided their feelings forever? If so, I need a tutorial.
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Oh great, my mouth is moving faster than my brain again. If you could just pretend I never said any of this, that would be grand.
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EVENT: I had a plan, no, actually, I had several plans. All of them involved keeping my mouth shut...
2025-02-23 21:34:01 +0000 UTC View Post
Have you ever convinced yourself you were “just being friendly” when deep down, you knew you were lying?
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Oh, I’m sorry, was I supposed to play it cool? Because I seem to have chosen dramatic emotional reveal instead.
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EVENT: I have just handed over my entire emotional state like it’s some sort of gift-...
2025-02-23 21:07:01 +0000 UTC View Post
Is it still romantic if you confess your love while running for your life?
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I could say it again, but then you’d get all smug about it. And I simply cannot allow that to happen. So, I’ll just stand here, grinning like an idiot, and hope you got the message the first time.
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EVENT: An attempted lo...
2025-02-23 11:17:01 +0000 UTC View Post
If you refuse to admit you miss someone, but you still sigh dramatically while thinking about them, does it count?
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I am not saying I miss you, but your pillow is on life support and the duvet has been crying in the corner for hours. I, however, am perfectly fine, completely unaffected, and absolutely not hugging your hoodie like ...
2025-02-23 10:07:00 +0000 UTC View Post