here's the pre-UNKILLABLE ANGEL version of RAT KID LIFESTYLE that i played live a couple times in 2023, as seen in this video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2DXOnP00zU
i wrote this song really quickly one day and didn't think too much about the ly...
2025-06-30 22:22:14 +0000 UTC View Post
i wrote this song in late 2022 struggling to find a new direction after UGLY DEATH came out earlier that year. i was on the weird meds ive mentioned in previous posts that were really affecting my songwriting in a strange way i didnt like, and id just been thru some really scary shit in the summer of that year that i wasnt in a position to proce...
2025-05-05 06:23:48 +0000 UTC View Post
this is one that i really struggled with throughout the entire process of making UNKILLABLE ANGEL. i scrapped and redid the lyrics at least once and was going to do the same for the guitar tracks before i lost interest - i just couldn't seem to make all the different parts work together as a song the way i was envisioning and the mix always seem...
2025-05-02 22:52:23 +0000 UTC View Post
wrote this song abt the particular kind of ptsd/whatever that comes from trying to keep someone alive. dont really wanna transcribe the lyrics, its kinda raw still
2025-05-02 22:31:04 +0000 UTC View Post
this song is from the UA sessions but it never rly had a place on the album - i considered it as a closing track in a couple short-lived forms the album took but nothing ever really stuck cuz the style and texture is just so different from everything else on the album. it doesn't even really fit with the b-sides, but i do like it a lot so i'm pu...
2025-04-23 19:01:13 +0000 UTC View Post
most of this beat comes from when i was demoing stuff for the newer material on UNKILLABLE ANGEL when i was staying with friends after leaving toronto in summer 2024. i came back to it early this year and did some of the vocals but it wasn't really clicking until today when i fleshed it out a little more - i love big weird crazy kpop brass and i...
2025-04-23 04:06:17 +0000 UTC View Post
i've got about an album's worth of b-sides from UNKILLABLE ANGEL, but the writing process for what eventually became that album lasted about 3 years, from the beginning of the UGLY DEATH cycle until the end of 2024 - so as a result i've got a ton of material even beyond the b-sides that i still think is pretty interesting. the b-sides (which wil...
2025-04-12 20:31:32 +0000 UTC View Post
this song started out as something i wrote really quickly just to vent after i felt like i'd been overly weird and awkward in a social interaction when i was trying to make friends here in montreal, which is something ive really been getting debilitatingly in my head about since moving (it ended up being completely fine, as it usually is). i don...
2025-02-27 20:20:49 +0000 UTC View Post
heres another alternate mix of an UNKILLABLE ANGEL song - this isnt as drastic a change as with BURY YOURSELF but i thought it still might be interesting.
the way i write vocal melodies varies between 2 main methods - i'll either improvise melodies out loud over the instrumental and kind of repeat them a bunch of times until ive got someth...
2025-02-27 19:51:16 +0000 UTC View Post
this is the original version of BURY YOURSELF that i'd planned to put on UNKILLABLE ANGEL until my friend ginger suggested i try re-arranging it into the final version that's on the album - i prefer the final album version since i feel like it's more dynamic and colorful and has more of a payoff, but the original version has an interesting feel ...
2025-02-21 22:50:10 +0000 UTC View Post
the name of this album refers to the me who is a scared little kid. they're unkillable because, after the hell of this year, i realized i had no choice but to always protect them. they're unkillable because they've got me, and together nothing can stop us. this is the only way forward. i love you.
december 7th 2024 vancouver
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2025-02-02 20:00:00 +0000 UTC View Post
had the first 25 seconds of this lying around forever but i could never come up with anything hard eough to follow it lol. still dont know if i really did but im happy with it. this ones definitely making the cut for the new album, i just felt like sharing it early so i can try to get back to posting semi-regularly on here.
ig this song's&...
2024-09-26 00:57:13 +0000 UTC View Post
most songs i post here are some kind of early version, but if they're released later most of the major elements stay p much the same aside from some polish and mix changes etc - i don't really "demo" songs since im kinda just adding chunks to a core idea and moving the chunks around and tweaking the hue/saturation of the chunks until it feels li...
2024-08-23 18:25:22 +0000 UTC View Post
another track from the same weird cursed era as the last one... these are probably two of the better ones but there was sooooo much unusable trash from that time. maybe i'll post some of that later, tho probably after my next album comes out just so i can reassure myself i can still make something coherent haha.
this song's really simple a...
2024-07-29 20:55:18 +0000 UTC View Postits just the name of the reaper project, i dont have final song names yet - this ones extremely weird and i change my mind a lot abt whether or not i wanna include it but lately i thiiiink it might be good. wrote it sometime last year when i was on these rly bad meds that made me unable to write songs but also believe i was at my songwriting pea...
2024-07-23 20:54:50 +0000 UTC View Post
here's a b-side from UGLY DEATH NO REDEMPTION ANGEL CURSE I LOVE YOU that i made pretty early on in the album's development. i went back and forth on it a bunch but ultimately i just don't think it really held together enough for me to put it on the album, even though it has some parts i really like still, like the hook. instrumental...
2023-12-11 15:48:47 +0000 UTC View Post
heres my full set from the july 9th show!!
shot by xenofawn
2023-07-29 20:55:32 +0000 UTC View Post(original post)
wrote this last year, sometime after ugly death, over a beat i'd had lying around since 2020 knives or so. i really like it but i dont think it has a strong enough core to go on an album
(edit april 13th, 2025)
came back to this scrolling thru my patreon and remembered how much i like it. for some reason ...
2023-06-22 17:04:53 +0000 UTC View Post
9 moon damage edmonton alberta no heat and the pipes froze in the winter so we had to walk to the abandoned place behind us to piss silverfish got on everything at night but the rent was 260 and there was an emotional attachment too we all had the hottest twitter presences no one online could understand what our deal was but it was like a drug t...
2023-06-21 17:00:13 +0000 UTC View Post
here's my new mini-album!! (attached to this post at the bottom) it comes out publicly on march 28th.
also, here is the music video for the first single "920LONDON", which will also come out on the 28th with the album. since this is an unlisted link to the final video, i'd like to ask that you please don't share it publicly anywhere until ...
2023-03-16 21:06:31 +0000 UTC View Post
here u go its my new album!!! it comes out publicly on may 23rd. i worked really hard on it and some of my best friends helped too. ESPer99 and ASH NERVE feature on some songs and Porpentine Charity Heartscape drew the cover for me. i hope u enjoy it!!
2022-05-18 17:59:33 +0000 UTC View Post
heres a new track!! again i'll probably rework this a bit for a future album. writing a lot of standalone tracks that i'm really happy with lately. the bridge & hook of this one were reallY HARD to sing!!! i had the instrumental and midi vocal melody written out a while ago but only just got around to writing lyrics and recording them - when...
2021-11-19 02:38:10 +0000 UTC View Post
will probably rework this for an album later
2021-10-30 17:36:22 +0000 UTC View PostPatreon seems to break any google drive links, so make sure you copy and paste the link to your URL bar when downloading anything from an older post on here that's linked via drive. Not sure why this particular thing is broken now. Sorry for the trouble!
2021-09-04 20:29:49 +0000 UTC View Post
Sorry for the late post - Fallow and its soundtrack came out on August 25th but I've been really busy dealing with release stuff as well as moving and everything involved in it.
I'm still unsure how I want to incorporate my larger game projects like this one into my Patreon, but I wanted to at least put the soundtrack up here (attached bel...
2021-09-01 03:45:44 +0000 UTC View Post
this is just a short clip (1 verse + 1 chorus) of a new track i'm working on, possibly from a new album project. ive been thinking a lot about this sound i have in mind that's like really propulsive & nostalgic melody-focused pop with exclusively screamed vocals and blown-out production. kind of like some weird industrial pop equivalent of m...
2021-01-21 00:10:43 +0000 UTC View Postthis is so rough and unfinished but its been a hard day and i put what little i have into it. will post a more fleshed-out version later maybe
2020-12-16 22:33:39 +0000 UTC View Post
this is a song from the 2,020 knives sessions that i never got around to recording vocals for until today - i always liked it but the beat is pretty weird and doesn't really sound like anything else on the album. this is a pretty rough version, my voice isn't in great shape today but i kind of like the way the autotune mangled it when i was stra...
2020-12-09 23:15:01 +0000 UTC View Post
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EDIT: alternate link bc some people have had trouble with the embedded upload:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1QxoSzI1vV_GR4TK3yonDkLMCSjJjR2Bs/view?usp=sharing
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2020-11-19 19:56:18 +0000 UTC View Postthis is a short unfinished track from around the same time as the songs on my upcoming EP - i really like the feel of it but i was never able to find a way to really flesh it out in a satisfying way. i wrote some sort of vague impressionistic lyrics that i'm not totally happy with, but i still really enjoy the melodies, mood and atmosphere of it...
2020-11-14 18:51:23 +0000 UTC View Post