what a year
Added 2024-01-01 07:57:27 +0000 UTCalmost exactly one year ago today we moved into a new house. moving is already so much but, without getting too into what i've already written a hundred songs about, it's an especially difficult task for someone who's been agoraphobic for half of their life. i was just recovering from covid, could barely walk after damaging one of my ribs from coughing so hard, and under 100 pounds. and yet - with the help of those who love me mixed with whatever courage i happened to have had on that particular day, i got into the car that took me to my beautiful new home.
it's been a good year. i think i sometimes overuse the word "transformative" but i often just don't know how else to accurately describe it. that's what it feels like to me, i still feel it with every meal that i eat and every social gathering we have. it feels so odd looking back on all those reclusive years. i look back on them fondly, but as something that doesn't feel real. it's like a remembering a movie that i saw.
still, when looking at all the good i can't help but think about all the things that got put on the back burner this year. i'm so proud of the things i've done, but i'm ready for more. more growth, more distance traveled, more songs, more art, more posts, more connections. more.
my therapist said something very beautiful to me during our last session. it was about how, despite using the word in nearly every session he does, he has never quite related to the term "recovery." he said it was because, even while he recovered from his agoraphobia, he knew that he would never go back to the person he was before. that this has always been about becoming someone else. it kind of blew my mind.
happy new year. thank you for supporting the little things that i do. here's to a very productive and... sorry for this... transformative 2024. i look forward to growing alongside you.
-mitch
