Requited Change Update

Hey everyone,

Did some cleaning up and editing and a couple of more pages.

I'm beginning to feel a bit better and know that I can push for more pages this upcoming week. My therapist and Dad have helped me out a lot. My Dad has kept me off of the internet and away from the PC until I was truly ready to return to it.

One of the key breakthroughs I had in therapy was that I've been beating myself up constantly by convincing myself that I'm lazy, my work sucks and that I deserve to suffer for it. But in reality, it's because of some 'other me' sitting in my skin that's killing my productivity. This has been a cycle of negative emotions and thought processes that I'm beginning to break.
I suppose I have a 'Katy' inside of me, but instead of trying to feminize me, she's trying to besmirch everything that I'm doing and destroy my willpower. A true devil on my shoulder and in my head.

This next week shall be make or break for whether I give everyone a free upcoming month. I've gotta get some goodwill back and prove to myself that I can do this and that my work is to a high enough standard. I'm subscribing to WAY too many negative thought processes at the moment.

Again, no excuses. It's rough, but apparently something like 59% of content producers that work from home experience this form of depression. I've just got to make sure it doesn't take me entirely and avoid the steps that led to this point in the future. I'll take the repercussions as always until I'm better.

Thanks to Cole Jones btw for the Easter wishes and I'll extend mine to you all too. And Aiel for the love of all that's holy, drop your pledge from $25! I appreciate it, I really do, but we both know that I don't deserve it at the moment.

Appreciate you all, thanks for all your support, both verbal and monetary. I'll speak to you all again next Friday. Wish me luck with the comic!

Update:

Had a horrendous week this week. Three pages...
Do you know what that means? A FREE MONTH NEXT MONTH.

I can financially take the strain, so don't worry. I sold a load of junk, so I'll be fine this next month. What I'll be doing is having the first two weeks off and then getting back to work for the latter half of May, I need a little break and have some ideas brewing too about things.

I really do appreciate the support at the moment everyone. I will get myself back, I know I will, but just when I think I've hit the nadir I find a shovel.

Next Friday shall be more Requited Change. I can't do anymore this week, sorry.