irondude

It's been awhile...

Added 2022-12-27 18:17:23 +0000 UTC

Hello everyone!

First of all, I'm extremely sorry for being inactive here for several month

My last post was about having struggles after my granny's death and it seems that I'm still kinda not okay about this (miss her so much, i see her often in my dreams and i cry almost every week)

I was also very busy with work and commissions. Last month I've ended my antidepressant course, I think I feel better than before starting this course. I wanted to update my patreon so much, but you know this anxiety when you feel something like "it's not enough for an update, I must do something more decent!" and these thoughts made me feel bad all this time because I wanted to draw more spicy stuff for patrons, but artblock is still suffocating me. All I could do is to update my sfw twitter account with simple fanarts, just to save any activity there.

Few weeks ago we found out that my cousin (who lived in my apartments for last 2 years) has been stealing big amounts of cash from me and my mom. It made me extremely upset because he was like a younger brother to me and like a son to my mom. We've done so much for him and this is how he treated us all this time, he didn't even apologized.

I still can't process how many shit I've experienced this year. 2022 is literally the worst year in my life, I really hope that next year will be at least a little bit better for me and my close family members.

I'm extremely grateful for everyone who still supporting me on patreon, I have no words to describe how I appreciate this...Thank you sooo much <3

I will do my best to not disappear like this anymore.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone!