badcatt

I haven't disappeared, I'm just working through my difficulties.

Added 2024-02-14 23:57:31 +0000 UTC

I disappeared because I didn’t have any news. In addition, I was hit very hard by the strike and two warnings on the channel. At that moment, I simply lost the point of making a video, and besides, the views can only be desired. I now have very strong psychological problems related not only to my illness, but also to everything that surrounds me. I don’t want to go into details, but I talk with a psychologist quite often and they even asked me to prescribe something for my anxiety.

It's really hard for me to say how I feel. I now have a life in dreams where I can function and visit places, but in life, it’s like I’m dreaming. This probably sounds strange, but during that night in a dream I experienced 3 days where I did something that I couldn’t do in life, and when I woke up, I was very upset by reality. My body is stabilizing, but this does not mean that I can somehow plan further trips. I will try to fight with myself because I don’t want to give up.

From very good. I started making several videos that blow my mind. I envy myself when I see all this. I try to do everything at a level that I have never done before. This is why the videos are coming out so slowly because I am concentrating on something very important. I really hope that my Patreon viewers will see this soon. Once the series of videos is ready, I will be happy to show them. But now I'm so excited about it that I can't wait to share it, but I need to finish it all for you to appreciate the end result.