An update: there's so much happening

Hello my dearest patrons,

I'm sorry I have been relatively quiet.  Let me give you a summary of the last two weeks. :)

As soon as we hit 2023 I started to completely and entirely focus on work for the visuals for this album.  The album is a FULL movie, narrative and all.  There were locations to nail down, storyboards to finish, shot lists to create then re-order, gear to rent and drive around Manhattan in my friends cars, crews to contract, a set to design, a script to write and costumes to coordinate, to name a few things. There were at least 24 people who crossed our set within the 7 days that we ended up shooting.  

It was easily the most intense preparation I've ever done for anything, and the second I got on set there was something for me to do every single second.  I've never felt more like I was learning on the job.

All that said, on day 3 of the shoot I collapsed.  I came home shivering and crying with a fever of 102 and a horrible sore throat.  I went to the doc the next day and got tested for everything.  Everything was negative.  This was my body letting me know that what I was doing, the level of pressure I was putting on myself, the way I was forgetting to eat full meals and drink water, was utterly unsustainable.

I'm used to brief discomfort like that, but this was the first time that I've had to figure out how to navigate doing this for a prolonged period of time.  And with a day of rest in the middle of the process I got there.  And I'm ok now.

This is about to be the year of self-care.  I have so much work to do this year, and I've never been more overwhelmed by it- between this film, the album and all of the content I want to make and shows I want to do.  But this last year actually gave me the space to learn what outside of my career makes me happy.  And I need to double down on that and on my physical and mental maintenance so that I can remain grounded in the midst of the chaos.  I feel ready to take on that task, for sure.  

The film is in the can, and I am beginning to edit it.  The album is getting its final mixes done.  I could not be more proud of it.  I've never made anything this beautiful.  And there are so many beautiful opportunities for it on the horizon.  Prepare yourselves for a lot of photos and screenshots.

I'll schedule a livestream for us to listen to Brooklyn this month and hopefully another song from the album too.  

None of this would be possible without you.  This film and this album are THE most financially risky things I've ever done.  But the stories are important and I believe in them so hard.  I want to awaken people to their own humanity with everything I do, and I've never been more sure that what I'm working on will accomplish that.  That's so special to be able to say.  And thank you for allowing me to do that. xx

More to come,

xxMKR