New Milestone + General Update/Thoughts!

Hey everyone! There are some days where I feel like the Patreon is going too slow, some days that I find it's growing rather quickly. But as of today, we've made it to $200 USD a month! I know that might not be a lot, but it's very heartwarming to me to be able to make it this far with this. We have nearly 140 paying members, and around 50 more members who are just following the page in a sense as free members who are told when new posts for them have been made in case they want to pledge or re-pledge. It's surprising to me that there are a few really well-known artists that don't make that much through Patreon either, but then again, I haven't really given too many people the option of seeing any new creations I make for free like they do either.

But! I hope that the $1 buy-in hasn't been too bad. I know we're around 25+ stories to read currently on the Patreon, so I figure what I can do eventually is once the total sum of the pledges is around $1,000 and there's 100+ stories on the Patreon, I'll start to rerelease the oldest ones to my FA as I feel like it? I know that means that technically someone could wait really long and eventually get all my stuff for free, but it could be a way to bring more people in I would assume? As of now, I imagine there are more than a few people who dismiss me without much thought because of how I've gated my stories. I get how annoying it can be, but I enjoy doing this, it's just that enjoyment and food on the table don't always end up being on the same path. 

I had another surprise with the last story I uploaded onto her, the one being the FTM story that I locked behind the $3 pledge for two months. I never liked doing that too much, but doing that got me from 170 a month to the current 202, so even though I don't like doing it, and FTM stories never interested me as much as MTF stories did, I can definitely see doing more of those more often. It's crazy to me to see how much my writing brings to everyone. To know I have people from so many different pledge tiers subscribed for several months for what I create is humbling, and it makes me proud. I feel like it should scare me too, but I don't feel too afraid. I don't think I'm egotistical, and I don't like to be, but I know what works, and what doesn't. It can be fun being more experimental and risk creating something that doesn't work, but I just don't seem to have that gridlock or fear some creators have. Maybe I will eventually, but for now, the only thing I'm mostly worried about is getting stale with the writing, or repeating too many themes/story structures. Yet, no matter how much I ask, those who have read my more recent stuff tell me they don't think it's stale in the slightest, so it really is just something in my head wanting to doubt at the progress I've made. 

If you can't tell, I overthink a lot. A boon, and a curse, and it also lets me write a pretty good sum. 

But yeah! I don't know if I have anything too special planned for the near future? Just going to go with the motions. I sometimes wonder if I'll have to evolve at some point, but for now, things are alright. I still want to create multi-part stories for sure. And definitely games. For those who might remember, the game I've indefinitely shelved is something I still want to do, it's just that I'm not a coder, and life did not allow me to live without making money *while* learning how to code. There was also a SFW skunk story I wanted to make more of a longer lasting story in terms of being a novella or a novel, but with the 2 Patreon stories, the commissions, the trades and personal writings, it's a bit crazy especially since I started a 32 hour a week job back in late October. It's the typical "low-skill" job people love to devalue. 

I'd love to make the Patreon my full time job, but until I make enough money to do that, it's kind of impossible? I'd have to make... $3,000 or even $4,000 a month through this Patreon alone, and I think at that point I could understand being terrified to do anything to mess that up. Plus... no health insurance, no easy way of doing taxes, and it'd just be hard in general. But as I've said, I enjoy doing this, and I enjoy knowing others are happy and "taken care of" with my writings. I want to be a fiction author, and if the Patreon could eventually make that much, then I don't see why not I couldn't do what I do for you all here while trying to also write books on the side to eventually "make it big."

Though, even if I did "make it big," I've put so much effort into this part of my life, I just can't see a reason or way as to why I'd abandon the Patreon. Even if I was some successful big time author making millions (fat chance), this place would still give me a reason to write pornographic creations. As much as I like it myself, I don't really write for myself, but rather ideas I think others would like to see, and how I, myself, might enjoy it if I wasn't the one writing it. To lose this, or give this up, would be like giving up the past year of my life, and that's not even considering how I started all of this a few years back. I like doing this, and meeting the people I have from this. I'm not going to leave, not for a long time if I can help it. In the end, if writing was something I really had no time for, doing at least two Patreon stories a month could be something I should be able to do no problem. 

Anyhow, I've said a lot, and nothing at the same time. No matter who made it this far down all these blocks of text, thank you for pledging what you've given. From those who make six figures and more pledging, to the people who give a single dollar they're unsure they can afford to give. I sincerely thank you all, and I hope I can bring a breath of fresh air in both creativity, and my general demeanor. I'm small right now, and I might still be small in the future, but I very much wish to be the same loveable momma bear all of you have gotten to know from the ones here at the beginning, or have joined just now, or have yet to join or even know about this community. Please all, be safe, have some really good holidays if you can, and even though I'd ask for you to stick along for the ride the whole time, there is nothing more I want than to make sure you all have everything settled in your own lives before giving anything to me. If you need to cancel, do so with no heavy hearts. I'd rather you be secure first and foremost. 

Everyone here is the first 190+ fine folks to what I want for one day to become thousands and thousands! To change hearts and minds from what I create, and if you've enjoyed what I've made so far, then I think you're really going to like what comes next. <3