Feraline

In the in-between

Added 2025-08-30 13:57:22 +0000 UTC

Wedged within hardships & emerging from fractures.

This year has been one upheaval after another ~ and yet I'm still determined to encourage myself to be grateful for it? Though the rocky edges are teaching, they are also painful. I am being shaped more and more, I feel like I'm being relentlessly carved out of stone. I don't know if I'll crumble or solidify! This year is either going to make or break me!

The newest hardship is that I don’t quite know if I’m standing at the edge of heartbreak now too, alongside the rest of the various turmoils this transformative year has thrown at me! But regardless of all the perils, one thing I do know is that I’m relieved the chaos of summer and festival season is done. I need the allowance to turn inward and to be unapologetically selfish. To pour into my own healing, my projects, my growth, after giving so much of myself away to everyone else. Unreciprocal energy is behind me.

I'm just glad that throughout it all, I've still clung to creating. To documenting. To writing. To capturing, myself in all my vulnerabilities. Though it does wane at times it's always there, and 'maintaining the desperation to make art' as a good friend calls it, will always get us through I feel.

Anyways. This season ahead is mine. I'm shedding so many skins, especially those of people pleasing ways. No more pouring into others who are happy to carelessly watch me dehydrate.

Fuck you 2025 and your tough and teaching ride!
(/Thank you. Ugh)

📷 Orson Carter