August 20 – 5:52 AM.
My alarm made a quiet, gentle chime, softly breaking the deep silence of the early morning. For a moment, I forgot where I was. The room was still bathed in a soft grey-blue light, and the ceiling fan turned slowly above me.
Then it hit me: Pilates! I sat up, still a little sleepy, my body still happily aching from the chores of the day before. I reached for my bag, digging through it to find anything that looked like workout clothes.
All I had were jeans, a couple of T-shirts with faded gaming pictures, and the soft linen set Aunt Rose had given me yesterday. None of it felt quite right for stretching, let alone planks. Panicking a tiny bit, I put on a slightly oversized black t-shirt and my loosest pair of basketball shorts. The elastic at the waist was a bit worn out, so I tied it with a shoelace I found in the drawer.
At 6:00 sharp, I stepped into the living room. The air was surprisingly cool and fresh, and the city below still seemed half-asleep.
Aunt Rose was already there, standing barefoot on a cork mat, her eyes closed in a peaceful meditation pose. She wore a soft rose-colored activewear top with leggings, looking absolutely serene. She looked at me once, at my half-falling shorts and wrinkled T-shirt, and said nothing. Instead, she handed me a rolled-up mat and pointed to a spot beside her.
“We’ll start with breathwork. Lie on your back, knees bent, feet flat.”
I nodded, too sleepy to argue, and happily copied her posture. My shorts slid down a little, and I awkwardly but quickly pulled them up before she noticed. She did, of course.
“Tomorrow, you’ll need proper clothes,” she said, eyes still closed. “Breath doesn’t flow freely when your waistband is fighting to stay up.”
I tried not to laugh, mostly because I was focused on breathing deeply. The session lasted for 45 wonderfully long minutes—stretching, core work, balancing. I struggled through most of it, but Aunt Rose moved like water, correcting my posture occasionally with a light, gentle tap on my back or shoulder.
By the time we lay down in savasana (corpse pose), I was happily soaked in sweat and breathing deeply.
“You did well,” she said as we rolled up the mats. “Not graceful but sincere.” I managed a small smile. “Thanks. I’ll find better clothes.”
“No need,” she said, already walking toward the kitchen. “I’ve ordered a set for you. It should arrive by this evening.”
After the intense morning Pilates session, breakfast felt like a delightful reward, even if it was steel-cut oats with almond milk and berries instead of a greasy breakfast burrito. Aunt Rose reminded me—without actually reminding me—that lunch would be my job today.
“The lentils are soaked. There’s brown rice in the glass container.
And the zucchini is in the fridge,” she said, sipping her tea. She left for her wellness center by 9:00 AM, her silk scarf neatly tucked into her vegan leather tote, her hair already in a bun.
By the time I finished cleaning the floors with the steam mop, my cotton top was sticking happily to my back. My hands felt wonderfully sticky from the eco-friendly cleaner, which is like a natural cleaner.
The loft looked perfectly clean, but I felt like I'd just happily survived a big storm! I headed straight to the bathroom, so glad for the cool water and the minty herbal shower gel Aunt Rose made me use. There was no shampoo bottle, just a glass jar labeled “rhassoul clay paste.” My life was really turning into a wonderful place full of natural, herbal things!
When I stepped out of the shower with a towel around my waist, I saw a neatly folded set of clothes on Aunt Rose's bedroom bed: a light peach cotton tunic-style top with pretty white designs near the collar and soft, cream-colored lounge pants with drawstrings. Next to them was a note in her handwriting: “After you clean the house, you shouldn’t look like you’ve been rolling in dust. Wear these.”
I stared at the clothes. They weren't mine. I called out, “Aunt Rose… these?” She answered strongly, “Yes. They’re clean, ironed, and they’ll keep you cool. It’s too hot for cheap, modern clothes.”
I hesitated. “But, they look kind of—”
“Elegant?” she said with a smile. “Exactly. You need to learn to look neat, even at home. You’re not a messy dorm boy.”
I didn’t argue. Mostly because she had a tone that was firm but impossible to go against. The tunic was light, airy, and softer than anything I’d ever worn. The sleeves stopped just above my elbows, and the embroidery caught the light in a surprisingly delicate way.
I wasn’t used to feeling good in my clothes. Usually, I just felt like I disappeared. I sat at the dining table with a glass of sparkling water infused with cucumber and mint and watched the ceiling fan spin. I wondered what kind of wonderful person I was slowly becoming. I didn’t hate it, but I also didn't recognize myself yet in the best way.
Just after 6:00 PM, the doorbell rang. It was a brown paper package addressed to me from an eco-friendly brand with a minimalist leaf logo. Inside was the Pilates outfit she’d ordered: a crisp white cotton top and matching yoga leggings, folded with tissue paper as if it were a fancy designer suit!
Dinner was light and lovely: quinoa bowls, cooked green beans, and a cool bowl of cucumber salad. After a busy day of sweeping, mopping, cooking, ironing, and somehow not burning the loft down, I was just happy to eat. Aunt Rose rarely talked much during meals, but after we’d cleared the plates and wiped the table, she asked casually, “Want to watch something?”
I wasn’t sure what she meant. The only TV shows I usually watched were reality shows or action movies. But I nodded. “Sure.”
She turned on the living room TV and opened her Netflix app. The show was called “The Good Place.” I’d never heard of it. It turned out to be a smart, philosophical comedy, mostly about ethics and what it means to be a good person. I slumped on the sofa, ready to ignore it.
But twenty minutes in, about the witty dialogue, the bright lighting, and the conversations between the characters started to relax me. They weren’t yelling. They weren’t rushing. It was just… real, gentle people.
“You’re watching,” she said with a faint smile, curling up on her side of the sofa with a velvet cushion behind her.
“Surprisingly, yeah,” I admitted. “It’s like... nothing blows up.”
“Not all things need to explode to be powerful,” she replied. Then she got up and went into the kitchen. She returned with a small glass cup and handed it to me. The liquid was dark and smelled earthy, like a mix of brewed herbs and roasted chicory.
“What is it this time?” I asked, sniffing it carefully.
“Tonic, ashwagandha, reishi, and a hint of lavender. Good for your nerves. You’ve worked hard today—your body needs to recover. Drink.”
I took a careful sip. It was bitter. Then sweet. Then spicy. Basically, deliciously confusing! As I made a face while drinking it, she came back with a small glass bowl of oil and sat down behind me.
“Sit straight. I’ll oil your scalp. You’ve been stressed, and your hair roots are dry.”
I blinked. “You don’t have to.”
“Shhh. Boys think self-care is a weakness. But being gentle with yourself is a strength when you do it for your own good.”
Before I could say anything, her fingers were in my hair, spreading the warm oil easily. Her touch was firm but calming, her thumbs pressing gently into my temples, her fingers moving around the top of my head as if she were untangling my thoughts. The smell of rosemary oil filled the air, wonderfully herbal and grounding. The television played softly in the background. I let my shoulders relax and sank into the cushions, calmed by the rhythm of her fingers and the quiet drama on screen. between the story’s most emotional part and her hands gently combing through my hair.
“Leave the oil in overnight,” she said gently. “It’ll help you sleep.”
I nodded, feeling wonderfully sleepy. The screen glowed in front of me, her hands were warm on my scalp, and the tonic still gently tingled in my chest. This wasn’t the life I knew. But maybe that wasn’t such a bad thing at all.
August 21 – Morning: Pilates and Unexpected Comfort.
The alarm went off at 5:45 AM, but for once, I didn’t groan or hit the snooze button. I sat up slowly, still feeling the lasting warmth of the rosemary oil on my scalp. My hair felt a little damp against the pillow, and my head felt lighter and clearer. I reached for the neatly folded set of Pilates clothes from Aunt Rose.
The cool air felt good against my skin, and the new yoga top moved easily with every movement. I was starting to enjoy the wonderful beat of it all—the breathing, the stillness, the early morning light warming the living room. We were starting the third round of planks when I twisted for an oblique crunch and heard it.
Rrrrip.
A short, sharp tear! I froze. I straightened up slowly and looked down. The seam of my yoga leggings—right along the inner thigh—had ripped. Just a small tear, but big enough to feel a breeze and, worse, to be seen if I moved the wrong way. Aunt Rose noticed right away.
She didn’t gasp. She didn’t laugh. She just stopped, put her palms together, and said, “Stop practice, go change.” I nodded quickly, a little embarrassed, and jogged downstairs, holding the fabric together. I reached my room and stood staring at the shelf. All I had were basketball shorts (which she kindly disliked), jeans (impossible for Pilates), and the torn legging set.
A minute later, I heard her voice outside my door. “If nothing fits, you can borrow anything from the storage basket in my room. Bottom drawer. Left side.” I opened it carefully. Inside were neatly rolled pieces of clothing—leggings, tights, and a few cotton pants, all in soft, lovely colors. I pulled out a pair of plain dark gray yoga tights—not shiny, not too tight-looking, but definitely not something I’d ever worn. They were hers. I hesitated. Then I remembered what she’d said: “You’re here to reset, not act overly masculine.”
I pulled them on. To my surprise, they fit well! They were snug, but not uncomfortable.
They moved wonderfully with my body and supported it. And honestly, they were much better than the loose shorts that had failed me! I stepped back into the living room. The sun was now glowing beautifully orange behind the old Chicago skyline. Morning sun rays glanced at my legs, then back at my face.
“No clothing drama now?” she asked, gently amused.
“No,” I mumbled, a little smile playing on my lips.
“Good,” she said, moving into a side plank. “You’ll find that being practical often looks better than pride.”
I followed silently. And strangely, I moved better. The tights gave me structure and balance. I wasn’t pulling fabric or adjusting anything. I was just moving. Breathing, Stretching. And for the first time, I wasn’t focused on how I looked. I was focused on how I felt, which was amazing.
After Pilates ended, I quickly left, rolled up my mat, and headed inside. My face felt warm, not from the sun. I wasn’t used to feeling... seen, not like this.
In my room, I stood in front of the mirror, still wearing the tights and the yoga top. The mirror didn’t lie. My legs looked thinner. The tights hugged everything—my calves, thighs, even the shape of my hips, in an oddly neat and pleasing way. Not like the baggy pants and oversized hoodies I usually hid in. I ran a hand over the fabric. It was soft, stretchy. Then the thoughts started. Why did it feel good? Why did I kind of like it?
Aunt Rose hadn’t made a big deal out of it, which helped. If she had laughed or made it sound like a punishment, I would’ve torn the tights off in seconds. But she didn’t. She made it feel wonderfully normal. Still, as I folded the tights and placed them carefully in the laundry basket, I caught myself thinking: Would she notice if I asked to borrow them again tomorrow? And even more unsettling: Would I mind if she did? I didn’t have answers. Not yet. Just delightful questions.
I’d just stepped out of the bathroom, towel around my waist, steam still wonderfully on my skin. My scalp tingled from the herbal shampoo she’d insisted I use—tea tree and peppermint, from her wellness center stock. It made my hair feel lighter, silkier, absolutely lovely. As I entered my room, I froze.
Folded neatly on the bed wasn’t the usual linen shirt and lounge pants I’d gotten used to. Instead, there was a soft lavender rayon blouse—cut a bit longer than usual, with delicate small pleats along the front, and small mother-of-pearl buttons. Paired with it was a pair of white cotton ankle-length trousers—narrow fit, no drawstring, and just a hint of embroidery near the bottom edge.
They looked somewhat feminine, but not exactly "girls' clothes." And next to the outfit was a sleek glass jar with a small jade roller, a clay mask in a glass pot, and a folded towel with a note:
"You’ve earned self-care. Apply the mask for 10 minutes before dressing. Close your eyes. Let your skin breathe."
I stood there, towel clutched at my waist, my heart beating oddly loud in the quiet room. I could’ve refused. I could’ve walked out and asked for a "normal" shirt. But within me was... curious.
I applied the clay mask as told—cool, slightly minty, with a hint of rose. It dried quickly, feeling so good. I rolled the jade stone across my cheeks like I’d seen her do every evening after her clinic. It felt amazing. Like I was giving my face a wonderful break from the tension I hadn’t even noticed I was holding.
When I dressed, the top brushed against my legs like water. The fabric was super light, the trousers slim but not tight. I looked at myself in the mirror.
My skin glowed faintly from the mask, and my hair rested around my temples like I’d just walked out of a luxurious spa. Aunt Rose knocked lightly before entering. She gave me one long look—eyes calm, observant—and smiled.
“You look refreshed,” she said. “That color suits your skin beautifully." I tried to speak, to ask what energy? But the words caught in my throat. Instead, I nodded. “It’s… comfortable.”
“Good,” she said. “Comfort is important. Most people never truly let themselves feel it fully.” She turned to leave, then paused. “Keep the mask jar. Twice a week. And tomorrow, we’ll trim your nails and do a proper hand massage. Your fingers look tense.”
I sat down slowly, the soft cotton flowing around me, the faint scent of rose still on my skin. I didn’t understand everything that was happening. But I wasn’t fighting it anymore. I was simply enjoying the journey.
Aunt Rose returned from her wellness center just as the Chicago skyline began to glow with evening lights. The lovely smell of lavender and sage stayed on her clothes, and her silk scarf fluttered slightly as she came in.
I was sitting on the sectional sofa, still feeling oddly light and wonderful in the soft lavender top she’d given me earlier, casually flipping through one of her Mindful Living magazines. She didn’t sit down. Instead, she took off her minimalist sneakers, adjusted her hair with one hand, and said, “Get ready. We’re going out. To Whole Foods. I like to pick things myself before the weekend rush.”
I nodded. “Okay. Let me just put on something else.”
“Already taken care of,” she said, pointing toward the edge of the sofa. There lay an outfit—carefully arranged like everything she did: a light peach tunic-style blouse, slightly wider at the bottom, with delicate lace embroidery along the neckline and sleeves. Below it, a pair of narrow white Capri pants with slits on the sides and small beaded designs near the ankle. The fabric was clearly meant for warm evenings. Light, airy, breezy.
"No way I can wear that outside," I said, trying not to sound freaked out. She turned to me, arms just loosely crossed. "Why not?"
"It's... It's super girly, people will totally stare!"
"They'll stare anyway," she said softly. "You're all cleaned up and wearing nice clothes. They'll stare because you're different, not because you're doing anything wrong."
I wasn't sure what to say. "But it's for girls."
"It's just cloth, thread and color. What it becomes is all about how you rock it. Besides," she added with a tiny smile, "I wore your cargo shorts once to clean the balcony. They looked awful, but I managed!"
I looked down at the tunic. The fabric kinda shimmered in the light. It wasn't loud or anything—it was elegant, subtle. Just... not what I was used to. "Can I just wear yesterday's linen shirt and pants?" I asked, being super careful.
She looked at me for a bit, then nodded. "Okay. But tomorrow, we're trying again." No lecture. No anger. Just that same calm vibe from Aunt Rose that somehow made me feel worse than if she'd yelled. I changed into the plain outfit from the day before. But as we walked down the bustling streets towards Whole Foods, I couldn't stop thinking about that beautiful peach tunic.
Weeks Later – End of September
The days kinda just blended together—each one packed with quiet, delightful routines: morning Pilates, herbal tea, special plant-based meals, skincare, foot massages, and endless lists of chores written in Aunt Rose's elegant handwriting. Somewhere along the way, I just stopped fighting it and started embracing it all.
I hadn't worn jeans or a band t-shirt in nearly a month or so. My closet slowly filled up with soft cotton tunics, flowy pants, and light colors I never would've had the guts to wear before. After a while, even seeing myself in the mirror stopped being a shock until recently.
It was a warm Thursday afternoon, and I'd just happily hopped out of the shower. I stood in front of the mirror, towel wrapped around my waist, and just stopped. My face was... different, in a lovely way. My jawline had softened—not gone, but less sharp.
My cheeks looked fuller, not fat, just... smoother. My lips were a bit pinker, even plumper, and my skin seriously glowed all the time now, like I was always lit from the inside! The tiny hairs on my arms looked thinner, my waist felt narrower, and even my chest had started to feel more sensitive lately—just a light fullness I couldn't quite figure out.
I pressed my hand flat against my stomach. My body didn't feel heavy anymore. It felt light, flowing, and balanced in a way it never had when I lived on soda, Netflix, and stress.
And then there were my movements. I noticed I stood straighter now, walked more carefully, and sat down without just flopping. Even how I dried my hair had changed—more gentle, more intentional. I caught myself humming softly while folding clothes the other day, which I used to hate!
The tonics became a delightful ritual—one every evening, no questions asked. Some tasted earthy, some bitter, some sweet like dates and cardamom. "They're made just for you," Aunt Rose had said once with a knowing smile. I hadn't asked what was in them. I wasn't sure I even wanted to know anymore.
The real change was harder to pin down. It was how I felt when I wore those soft, light-colored tunic sets. Like I was slowly becoming someone I hadn't met yet. Someone who was already inside me. Someone, Aunt Rose, seemed to have seen long before I ever really looked. I picked up the peach tunic she’d laid out weeks ago—the one I’d refused to wear. I ran my fingers over the fabric.
Alexandra Shiach
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