[Chapter 3: Unveiling the Birth of a Fatal Obsession]

Every intense obsession begins with a subtle seed.

That seed grows and gradually develops into powerful emotions and actions.

In my case, the seed of this obsession was sown during a small incident from my childhood.

What started as mere curiosity eventually took deep root within me over time.

As a child, I was unusually curious.

I sought something extraordinary in the mundane routines of everyday life.

Moments that would simply pass by others seemed mysterious and captivating to me.

I developed a particular fascination with human emotions and how they were expressed.

I became intrigued by how pain, sorrow, joy, and other emotions manifested in others.

My obsession truly began to take shape on a summer day.

While playing with friends, I witnessed one of them accidentally fall into the water, struggling to stay afloat.

In that moment, I discovered a strange beauty in my friend’s fear and desperation.

The scene left a powerful impression on me, one I could never forget.

As time went on, my obsession with extreme human emotions grew stronger.

I became captivated by the rawness of emotions that emerged in moments of suffering, the true nature of humanity revealed in despair.

My desire to explore these emotions consumed me, and my artistic expression developed alongside this fascination.

This obsession deepened with time.

I moved beyond mere observation, yearning to experience these emotions firsthand and to evoke them in others.

My art became increasingly extreme, as I sought to understand the essence of humanity through these explorations.

This pursuit provided me with endless satisfaction, and I began to build my own world within it.

Why did such an obsession arise?

Perhaps it is due to the inherent curiosity and desire for exploration within human nature.

We all have, in some form, a yearning to experience extreme emotions.

It enriches our lives and helps us recognize our existence more clearly.

My obsession extends beyond a simple personal desire.

It is a process of seeking a profound understanding of human nature, through which I have come to know myself better.

Through this obsession, I aim to explore the true nature of humanity and uncover hidden beauty within it.

In this writing, I intend to explain in detail how my obsession began and how it has influenced my life and art.

Through this, I hope you will gain a deeper understanding of my artistic exploration and the truths discovered along the way.