Update

This wasn't the post I wanted to make this month, but.

So, I just received a phone call from the doctor in charge of looking after my thyroid and aftereffects, and she told me that they found a growth in the area where my thyroid gland was cut for the surgery and I'm scheduled for a biopsy this Saturday to identify it. Of course it could a benign growth, but it doesn't take a doctor to be realistic about the implications of a growth appearing back in a spot that was once cancerous. This is to add on to the fact that there are already seemingly benign growths in my liver; and so my personal, uneducated opinion is that there is a high risk that my previous cancer has metastasized.

It sucks, there is no two ways to express how I feel right now. Since I was first diagnosed in June, I strived to live my life without regrets, so that I can prepare to meet my end at any moment, but it is still rough. Enjoying success with Meltys Quest, I wanted to do much, much more. Meltys Quest has actually done so successfully that I could financially live a year or two off of it alone. But I still wanted to do more, to show more, and help solidify the foundation of a path where good eroge get the translation they deserve to help support their creators. 

I don't want my time to be so short, but I'm realistic to a fault. I wish I was simultaneously born earlier, and born later. Born earlier so I could've translated more. I read what people write about the translated version of Taima Miko Yuugi and I hate myself for not having been able to be the one to translate it. That is not a game that should've gotten such a shitty "translation". And I wish I was born later in a point of time where the survival rate and life expectancy of people who are in the later stages of cancer are higher. 

As such, while my health situation is so uncertain, I'm disabling the patreon payments. And I won't turn it back into monthly payments until I have a second game to translate, regardless of the results of my biopsy and any possible resulting treatments that might follow from it. If my worst fear comes to pass, which is that I have a metastasized cancer in my body, then I will release a list of eroge developers that I have contacted and explain whether or not they are interested in getting their games localized for Steam, and hopefully aspiring talented translators can use that information.

I will not be accepting personal donations or a gofundme page or anything stupid like that. Everyone who has continued to support me in past few months on Patreon with their money is more than I deserve. If you want to spend your money for something good, donate to a cancer research or early detection charity. In fact, if you guys can do me a favor, is recommend to me a good and honest cancer research/early detection charity. In event of a worst case scenario, I want to write half my assets to a cancer related charity in my will. 

Hopefully I'm just working myself up to nothing, and this is just coincidentally a benign growth that happens to grow in place of my missing gland, but living myself to the fullest with no regrets means preparing everything I can for any possibility. Thank you for reading and following me up to this far. I couldn't have done Meltys Quest without the support of many people, including Sachinama, my family, my friends, my patrons, and people on the Steam who helped spot my mistakes and bugs. As it is only fair, I will update on the aftermath on the biopsy and what decisions that I will plan to make.