Update 8-28-2021: Emotional Rollercoaster

Hi guys so I've been going through a hell of a week with my art, my part time job, my parents, getting my new car, and just the fact my week has been one emotional rollercoaster after another. 

I don't wanna go into too much detail but this week has been so stressful, a few good things have happened like me getting my new car but I've been coping with how many other things. It's like this week wants to crush me under the pressure. It's making it hard for me to even draw. I know have till Wednesday my time to post up the rewards but I had to take a tiny break and a sort of mental health day. 

At this point I'm looking for a new job because my current part time is just not going to cut to anymore especially these days. My father said he's help me pay for the car since he helped me get it, but I rather be able to pay for it myself in case anything happens. I should be able to for now but I rather be safe than sorry. 

Thankfully I got in contact with my uncle and he might be able to help me out with a new job. So fingers crossed. 

In addition my new Fiat was acting up because the wireless key batter was dying so I was freaking out all day. Thankfully we got it resolved. I got to test drive it but my mother had to be an overly judgment parents like she always is.

I've had to think about tax related stuff for the future but thankfully I talked to some friends and other awesome people that put my mind at ease. But then my mom had to be a downer and criticize me doing art because the income is "inconsistent."

That's just the cliff notes version. There were also a lot of things this week too.  This is what I mean about it being an emotional roller-coaster, a lot of highs and a lot of LOWS.  it's been like walking on pins and needles and walking on a razors edge this whole week. I've been anxious and uneasy for the past week if not more. But I'll try and keep it together, I know I'll be okay. I can't afford not to be. Yes I've let myself cry, talked to my auntie and cousin, and been doing everything I can to keep me sane. Trying to sleep more, work out more and try not to be a slave to my own depression.

I can't thank you guys enough for all the support you guys have given me. It keeps me going and reminds me what I do matters. You guys are the best!

I'm gonna keep trying for both you guys and myself. 

Thank you