Arthur updates + emotional rambles

As some of you may know this week has been incredibly tough because on top of everything one of my two kitties got seriously sick. He was overnight at emergency and it sent me crashing back hard into the awful three months before I moved when Dewen was very ill... thinking each next vet trip was the one they were gonna tell me they would have to put her down. Obviously it was a really long road and even tho she's a spoonie like me she gets on okay now with her inhaler & allergy meds.

He had bad liver damage from something toxic possibly and he's home with lots of meds and special food to try to heal his organs. We have to wait a couple more weeks till we'll know if he's actually healing (another lover enzyme test) Altho I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high he's definitely behaving like he's feeling better on the whole so fingers crossed we may be out of the woods for now.
Arthur's had his Brushes with death before but on the whole is generally healthy... Till this week and then obviously my health is also far worse this time around so trying to take extra care of them both has been tough. Raigen has stepped up to help where I can't even on top of working 100 hour weeks to support us both (my income goes to my medical bills) like a trooper 💪 and tim & my mum have been helping too, so I'm so grateful I'm not having to do this alone but of course it's still been tough

Speaking of tough I'm in the midst of a Hella flare from shooting yesterday (here's a blog post about it if you want to see some Sansa sneak peeks! Don't check at work tho! It's pretty 🔥) - still not as bad as I expected though so I'm proud of myself for being better with pacing and disability management protocols (including speaking up & advocating for myself/asking for help).

All in all its just been... A lot. I care about my cats more than most people like I hand reared them and I don't plan on having human children this is close to a maternal bond as I'm getting and I would murder most people on the planet for them bcs they're my best friends. There was a good chunk earlier this year when I had no one and my Cosmians and my cats were literally my only social interaction for days at a time and they helped with my mental health and just getting through that so much. I wouldn't have even admitted that to myself half a year ago but I don't know why the hell trying to take care of your mental health despite having no friends feels lame bcs I can now see it's strong af tbh 🤷‍♀️

Right I think I got the main points across in that ramble Tldr, Arthur almost died, on the mend but won't know for sure few more days, I've been having a rough time, I appreciate you all so much 🤗

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