Well, I'll be totally open and honest with you people, i never expected to reach the first goal this fast. It's been over 5 years without drawing and i still feel I'm unable to draw something worth posting.
When i opened patreon i kind of was expecting having 3-4 months, at least, to practice with the 10$ tier rewards before imposing myself drawing daily/weekly. I know it's been like 2 days since i said i would draw daily instead of weekly but while drawing these sketches i realized i was lying to myself... I'm a fool, I'm not ready at all to keep the pace i wanted to follow, not yet at least, and i feel if i continue doing it this way I'm going to break.
The point is, i think i'll remove all the goals for now. They are just distracting me from doing what i really wanted this patreon for, draw.
I know it may sound weird since having goals push people to reach them but in my case i think they are doing the opposite. I'm really bad with pressure and i usually put myself in those situations. I need to stop that bad habit.
So this is my deal, I'll keep on drawing the rewards AND drawing meaningful things that makes me happy/realized. For example: the kappa one, it was fun to draw, made me happy and barely had any mental struggle with it, if that makes sense, i might even color it at a later date. However, drawing random sketches like the ones in this post... they are ok for "practice" but they are kinda embarrassing to upload, they are not really worth it. I prefer uploading more detailed and better "finished" sketches than these.
Of course if you wanna stop being my patron I'll understand, is my own fault for adding a lot of pressure to myself, i won't blame you.
So starting tomorrow i'll resume drawing the rewards and from time to time I'll upload other things too.
Thanks for understanding (and reading my poor english wall-o-text)
Wolfgang Larue
2019-06-17 06:52:48 +0000 UTCSombreve
2019-06-17 05:43:38 +0000 UTC