24. Hidden Feelings

"Tom? What are you doing here? What are you...?", stunned, Billy asked. His face was as if he'd seen a ghost.

"Yeah. I'm gay. And I've had feelings for you ever since we fucking met. Was that really that oblivious to you?", Tom asked.

"I...  I didn't know... wait... is that why you didn't want me to be with  Emma? That makes so much sense...", it clicked in Billy's head.

"Yeah.  And now seeing you with the nerd over here being all sweet and whatnot  is killing me? I mean why weren't you as sweet like that towards me? Or  maybe do you have feelings for him too?", said Tom angrily. "You're a  horrible person, you know that, right?", now Tom was going at it with  the personal insults.

"Maybe  you should have just told him how you felt instead of being a coward  about it.", I said out of the blue. Maybe I shouldn't have. Maybe I  should have just left the room as this wasn't my drama to be in.

"Who  are you calling a coward, you twat?!", Tom started to approach me,  which made me go a few steps backward. I was saved by my personal  bodyguard Billy when he stood in front of me.

"He's right. I'm not a horrible person. You should have just told me.", said Billy.

"Tell you? Weren't you like a raging homophobe? Isn't that why you were picking on Nate there?"

"That's... that's different...", exclaimed Billy in shame.

"Different  how?! I didn't want my best friend to hate me. Of course, I couldn't  tell you. Well, ex-best friend.", there was a hint of sadness in his  tone.

"Tom... I...", Billy was at a loss of words.

"Save  it. I don't want to see you ever again. Now go and cry yourself a river  in Nate's arms. If I mattered to you and you regret losing me that is.  Doubt it... you were always obsessed with Nate anyway."

Tom  stormed out of the classroom. I guess he couldn't stand to face Billy  anymore. I mean it makes sense. I always knew both Tom and Billy hated  me more than the other ones, I just didn't know why. The other guys were  bullying me just for fun. It's actually sad when you think about it –  their reasons had nothing to do with me.

Also,  what did he mean by 'obsessed with Nate' when he was talking to Billy? I  wanted to ask him that, but I didn't want to risk getting yelled at, so  I just put my hand on Billy's back, hoping that would provide him some  comfort and release of the stress he had to go through.

I  have no idea how I ended up in the middle of this drama. Some people  would like being like that, but I absolutely hated it. Why do I have to  be in the middle of their personal messes? Fuck sometimes I wish I could  just run away from everything in life.