Sorry about depression...

As someone who has had his share of depressive episodes in the past I understand how you were feeling. Just do what you feel like until you feel better, if that's drawing what you want or telling the stories that you want to tell go for it, the people who came for your work in the first place because it is your work will still be here. If you need to take some time off to clear your head feel then take your time, the most important thing is to look after yourself. I have followed the work of more than a few people in the past who ignored their depression until it was too late to tragic consequences, if you need to take some time off to feel like yourself again then make time for you, if you feel you need help because you are struggling then please reach out- remember no matter what you are worth it.

The Insane Hiker

Oh, you don't have to apologize. Depression is a thing that definitely needs to be dealt with as soon as possible. I'm glad you told me about your current state, maybe after that you really felt relief.

VitAnyaNaked

Don't worry to much about it, you are only human and not only is everyone here your fan if not your friend? This is very much a place for you to express your self in exactly this way. I pretty much understand what you are say and for what it is worth? I think it good to share that feeling with others. Hope that helps if only just a little.

Michael KochKetola

Do you know that I was once advised in a situation like yours? That you need to control your thoughts and generally try to delete the word "depression" from your head. Hope you get better!

NakedSunFlower

Don't be sorry Kari, and don’t call yourself stupid, because you’re not. Whenever you need to cry, do it, whenever you need to shout, do it as well. Sometimes you just need to let it all out, and that’s completely normal. You know, I’m not that smart… I wish I could tell you right away the “cure” for your depression, but the reality is, just like Ruyxi said, that there can be a lot of causes, and each case has its own cure… What I can tell you and I’m absolutely sure of it, is that by you telling us all of this, you’re already making progress, because you’re realizing it, you listen those voices that are screaming mean things to you… But all what they say is false! No matter how loud they can be, they’re just telling you… lies, bullshit. Don’t make people get away from you, because you need them more than ever, Kari. Don’t think that you are protecting people by pushing them away, these people need to protect you know, we need to protect you know. And of course, if you need to talk about it here, do it as well. We’re here to support you, always. Even if we just read you, we’re here. You’re not being selfish or anything by posting how you are feeling on your own page, you know! You are a great person, Kari.

Furzota

No, you cannot, and I am in therapy and on medication and working to find the correct dosages and meds, it just takes time. I appreciate your sharing and your support.

DogGirlKari

Hello, long-time lurker, first-time poster here. I might not have any experience with depression or gender dysphoria, but I know exceptional writing and artwork when I see it. I love the world you've created and the characters that inhabit it; it was what prompted me to become a Patron. However, unlike art, you *can't* put a price on mental health and emotional well-being.

JamesPolymer .

You have nothing to apologize for. We're here to support you.

Jennifer Miller

Ain't that the truth, when you are in the thick of it, everything is lies, or just wrong, nothing changes the "truth" you know in your head. Its a really scary thing to be lost in a depressive delusion and unable to stop or control your actions.

DogGirlKari

I've struggled with depression for over a decade. I'm not going to say I know how you feel because that's different for each person, but I can empathize with your situation. I know all the words in the world mean nothing sometimes when you're in a depressive episode, but please understand that we're supporting you with whatever you decide to do or create.

I know those feelings. Don't give up on your friends, if they truly care about you, they will understand and let bygones be bygones. *hugs*

DogGirlKari

There is nothing selfish of what you're going through. We are all along for the ride with you in this whether you want us here or not. Depression sucks ass, and it's super easy to feel isolated and alone, but we are all here for you, even if it's just a mass collection of words on a screen. We got your back.

Tyrannosaur87

<3

Erin Brioche

yea, depression sucks. There are a lot of causes of it and each cause has it's own cure which is one of the hardest things about fighting depression, figuring out what works for you. I fought mine with anti-depressants and a lot of self realization. one of the best ways to fight depression is to just push through the thoughts and not let yourself get bogged down in the swamp. Stopping to let yourself think of depressing thoughts just helps reinforce your depression while pushing through it will let you break the cycle of neuro pathways in your mind. Maybe it will work for you and maybe not. Unfortunately there is no one size fits all solution, but it will at least help. Another thing to keep in mind is that people who dislike you or bully you online don't matter, only the people that like you and encourage you matter. After all how many people blaspheme dr. pepper but love pepsi. Does it matter that millions of people dislike dr. pepper when millions of others love it? No. Success should be measured on the amount of people who love you and genuinely like you, rather than the amount that hate you. Just focus on us, and listen to us when we tell you that we like your weird sexy art and that we want you to keep being you. (and maybe publish more art if you can manage it. :P)

Ruyxi Sylpheyes

I know how you feel. Been depressed for such a long time that it's almost natural now. Recently pushed some good friends away because of it and I miss them a lot. I don't think they will ever talk to me again, but it's better to walk away them hurt them. Know you aren't alone and that depression is a real problem. Take time off when you need to.

Ryuvain