Bitty Update

Hello Everyone!

I have to say something but I'm a person who doesn't like venting in public but I have to give a few statements regarding my status.

Not going to lie but I feel so unmotivated during October, which is my Birth Month. I make less commissions and sometimes I just wanted to take a break but again, I don't want to kept my costumers waiting in there queue since I am slowly making progress on every commissions.

The reason of being unmotivated is because of everyone at home, including my mom. Like I've been trying to earn money for some improvements to my room or something (ex: Closet, new Bed, an air conditioner) But for more than a year that she kept burrowing money from me for the sake either of my sister and my newly born nephew [Which just turned 1 last September 28]. Regarding my sister; she kept asking if she can burrow allowance,which either costs $10 or $20, and never pay me back and if I didn't respond nor say no, she goes to my mom to tell me to let her burrow money. My Mom owns me $400 and I haven't getting paid because of circumstances.
I kept asking since August even just a $100 so i could but new shoes, shoes I could use for work out. and there's always something happening and I couldn't get any. like Last August, I asked for that portion of my money and apparently, the same day, my nephew broke my Niece's phone! He smashed the phone and the screen is screen. I apparently can't do anything but kept waiting.

Now it was my birthday a few weeks ago [Oct 3] and I didn't get anything. My Nephew's Christening was held the same day of my birthday so I only did was make cupcakes for the birthday boy and slept the whole day. I get some greetings and I appreciated it eventho some of my responses on twitter is so fucking negative. Can't you blame me?
And I'm so jealous to other artists that getting gift art from their friends and I get nothing. It does sound self-centered but you know... It's not easy to hold my sadness on a very tight bottle who's about to pop...

I'm very unmotivated on this month because of such... circumstances...
I understand if you don't having anything to say about it but at least you know what's happening to me than nothing.

I guess respect is out of the question, right? I don't even respect myself. I HATED myself but i guess everyone knows it...

Yeah.. I'm pathetic 

I guess that's what these particular people wanted to see from me, right? Being so negative or something bad happened to me and so they could use it as an ammo so they could feel better. 

I guess I have the last laugh after what happened. 

Sorry about the 180, guys because of what happened last year. Someone used someone's username just to harass me here in Patreon.
So does sending me death threat via telegram. We already Identified the sender but I rather not press forward even tho they already crossed the line. For the sake of his family, I suppose. 

I might be helping a friend of mine about his Project for the furries in my country even thought I shouldn't but I guess I can't help myself because there are still good furries in my country. And I mean you guys are aware of the community here. and yes, Fascist furries exist in my country.

Anyway Thanks for everyone reading this even it doesn't worth your time.