Diary entry 1 ❤️ My thoughts on surgery

I want to start using this to share my thoughts and experiences along my  plastic journey.. There has been so much I have wanted to say 😌

I just mentioned on Twitter that back when I was 1000cc one of my exes finished with me as he didn’t want me to go any bigger with my boobs.. I had ordered a pair of custom 1500s from Sebbin for myself and that was the end of that relationship 🤦‍♀️ but the beginning of my xl journey.. 

Once those 1500cc implants arrived (Sebbin actually allowed me to have them shipped to my house, which was pretty cool) and I held one in my hands in the protective packaging I realised they were going to be too small and I wouldn’t be happy so I sold them.. and as some of you know Ariane Saint Amour bought them and had them put in by my surgeon..

It’s funny because a lot of people think that we have surgery to please other people but I always did it for myself.. I wanted to look and feel sexy for me, though as I also just said on Twitter if my guy were to love huge fake boobs that would be an amazing bonus 😊❤️

It’s insulting to me to say a woman chooses to look a certain way only for men.. My mother also used to make the assumption that women wore makeup and dressed up purely to attract the opposite sex.. The truth is a lot of us do it because we genuinely enjoy it.. I love working on myself, it gives me pleasure and a creative ‘outlet’.. 

When I was a kid I loved art and beautiful things in general.. As I got older I began to become interested in makeup and fashion.. I’ve always had two sides to me, the ‘serious’ side that is into studying and that creative ‘fun’ side that can seem a bit crazy to some people lol.. I‘m as interested in plastic and enhancements as I am in current affairs and what’s going on in the world and I don’t think I should be made to feel bad about that.. 

Because of a lot of the things I’ve been through and seen I do speak up about issues I think are important.. I know it means I might lose a few followers but I wouldn’t be true to myself if I only posted the ‘fun’ side and talked just about my tits and looking or being sexy..  

The plastic and my enhancements are an amazing hobby I will probably never give up but I want to show the other side of me too and tell my story so this was the beginning.. I will keep these entries open so everyone can read but the more personal things just for members.. I hope it gives people a bit more insight into what motivates me to do what I do xx