day 5

WHAT A GOOOOD DAY SHAWTIES !!!

Let this be your reminder that a day with heavy emotions really is JUST A DAY and it will pass!! I went to bad super late yesterday as I got stuck editing. You maybe wouldn't believe it, but sometimes it takes me 2 hours to edit one simple reel... yeah, I know lol, a long ass time, but afterwards I felt so happy and accomplished hehe. Its a satisfying feeling producing something that conveys something in the way and depth you aspired to achieve. And I feel like I am doing that with my new Papua Series. Its been getting a lot of traction on my tiktok, but mostly people assuming the tribes will eat me or that I will infect them with some diseases. I get their point, but reality is way different. A) cannibalism tribes have been gone since the 60s. 2) people here aren't "cut off" from civilisation. Papua has a rugby team which travels to australia, they themselves have been exposed to tourists and travelers wayyy before me. So, no worries.

Soooo, after going to bed at 2am I woke up at... 6:30 am, BUT THE WATER WAS RUNNING for solid 10 minutes so I quickly filled up buckets and poured them over me. I didn't care how cold it felt, all I wanted was to wash and I was so happy I did. One thing that is super important to me and I keep a strictly routine of no matter where I am is my hygiene. I will ALWAYS to my face wash, no matter where or how. Yesterday, I even filtered out mosquito larves from my water because that was the ONLY water accessible... ouf haha. But alright. Then I took my sweet time braiding my hear, dancing to music and vibing naked in my room. Being naked just feels good. Put on a cute top (tbh also I don't have a lot of clean clothes anymore, my last laundry in a washing machine is... 3 weeks ago?. I had a river wash inbetween tho (only to then leave half of these clothes which I am now desperately trying to retrieve but also already detached from them). But its okay, the clothes I pack are usually long lasting and easy to clean. Packing smart is important to enjoy comfortability on a trip. The last thing you want is going on some sort of extreme adventure only to realise you're equipped wrong.

My breakfast was an Avocado and Passionfruit delight. Sooo yumm. Then, we saw another tribe, but honestly I feel like I have overtribed now. Me and Daniel are both feeling soo ready to go home. Exciting countries are fun, but also exhausting. Even being greeted constantly and asked for photos might be cute on the first 3 days, but after a while you feel like you just want to be for yourself a little more. Tomorrow starts the last chapter of our PNG trip. Before heading home I will hit my 20th country this year which is just crazy to think about. I feel like every year I am upstepping it. But also, I remember last winter I really felt like I needed a rest, after getting robbed in Morocco. This year, I also feel like I will need this rest. Rest consisting of fam, horse, skiing, friends and mountains, and SELF CARE. I really do self care a lot. People maybe underestimate but this is the only way I can keep going. I have prioritised it even more this year. I do check ups, sauna and ice bath, try to eat well and stay fit. Health is Nr 1.

The rest of the day was free. We have been having a lot of free time the past 4 days and as much as we were excited and in need for it initially ( we quite roughed it the first 2 weeks), now we are bored lol. I just walked a lot, called my fam, edited some videos... nothing special.

I have a lot to prep when home. I always pack my first week the MOST intense so I can get some stuff off mx plate. I'm talking 3 appointments a day, getting new gear ready, and everything else that needs to be done. Whenever I leave, I make sure I tidy everything up well so I already know my cozy room awaits me and is ready for me to put in new decorations. It is full of little memories I have from all different countries. I am also excited to paint again. I used to just sit naked in my room, paint all night, and get so creative. Listening to music, and it feels like meditation.

One thing that I am lowkey super excited is a BIG FAT unboxing !! Usually I don't have a lot of packages but this time some are awaiting me from my FAVORITE brands ever (I would've ordered there anyways sooner or later..) !! Which is such a blessing and reward seeing that you're being recognized by the brands you genuienly want to work with. It shows me that I curate my socials correctly for them to feel so aligned that they want to work together. Happy moments. Paid partnerships in the future would be a dream but who knows, we'll see. One day I will maybe make money from social media, for now, its just my photography which I also actually don't mind. I can see how my friends who only make an income from socials feel pressured to post certain things to attract brands, vs I feel like I approach it more with an idgaf attitude and "the right ones will come regardless", because I am not dependent on money off it at all. I want to attract my right audience and community 100000 x more than money. Tourism boards for example usually hold AMAZING brand deals, yet they wouldn't work with me because of too much nudity. Okay, sucks, but also idc bc this is me and I'm sorry, I won't fake my socials to cater to someone just for them to like me lol. It would take away all my joy I get from sharing online and the biggest reward would be taken away: you. Sharing stories and talking to likeminded people thanks to social media is literally such a gift and you guys inspire me everyday. I know sometimes to some people I might seam unapproachable, or people paint a picture in their head because of a number it says on my profile, but in real life I'm also just a 21 year old girl figuring it all out. I try to share my advice wherever I can tho if it seems to help someone <3 I am always here to listen if you need me.

Okay another random topic, I posted a few videos the past days that got some views and views always means hate. People sometimes worry that this hate could hurt me, but the truth it is the opposite. I LVOE to stir controversy, I love to trigger. I don't let everything get to me, most of the time what people are saying has more to do with them than with me anyways. And that is because I know WHO I am, what MY intentions are and no one else. I guess what i'm trying to say here is don't be afraid to boldly live your truth. Evoking in others is good. Don't take everything personal, because it's not. Not everyone needs to like me. That's not how it's supposed to be. I know I have my tribe out there and that's enough.

This was a total random rant on here today, feel like the bubbly happy self I currently am is reflecting that maybe haha, just feeling excited and looove :)