I've taken off my maid outfit for this post because I want to be taken seriously.
Added 2024-12-01 08:14:11 +0000 UTCHey, public update time.
I'm getting a little depressed again about the pacing of this update. I constantly fall short of my own assigned quotas and just can't seem to escape from this slump. I want to make clear that progress is still being made, but it's so much slower than it should be.
I've wondered what the reason for this may be. Maybe working on this game at such a high level with no help for 2 years has finally caught up to me. Maybe I bit off more than I can chew when it comes to the quality of the game. After all, I'm putting more care into the graphics and post-production than ever before. But right now I have a leading theory. Which is this year's disruption of my workflow. I'd explained previously that in Summer I was essentially evicted from my workstation due to house repairs. This left me unable to render so I resorted to only writing. Once that was done, all that was (and still is) left to do is rendering.
This is a departure from how I previously tackled development. I'd write a chapter and render it. But now, with nothing left to write, there's no break from rendering, and I think the hundreds upon hundreds of renders and animations I have to do without reprieve is causing burnout. For months now, I come home from work and it's just... "More rendering?" My motivation is through the floor, and I'm trying to scramble and reassemble some form of drive.
As I've said earlier, progress is moving forward, I've still been trying to render daily even if I fall short of the standard I've set in previous updates. For a while now I've estimated that the events of the summer have set me about 3 months behind schedule. Which is a harrowing number to look at.
The update won't release this year. It's not possible, especially with animations, and for that I apologize. I do want to make clear that we're still in the ballpark of an early 2025 release. As disappointed as any of you may be to hear that the end isn't quite in sight yet, remember that no-one is as upset about this as I am. Regardless, production continues. I'm not running away or telling you white lies. I'm still struggling through this. I love having a way to tell this story and express my creativity, I love looking back at my gorgeous renders (especially this update, the eye-candy is off the charts).
I'm animating a lewd scene right now, once this animation is done I desperately need to fulfil my custom render requests and release wallpapers. So expect them ASAP.
I'm sick of posting about my shortcomings and airing my weaknesses, but I value transparency even if there's a hurdle to admitting it. Thanks to everyone still supporting me and those who are still hyped for the new update.
I love you guys and all I ask is for your patience and understanding. I'm exhausted and definitely overworked. The update will come on soon-ish, just not super soon.
ily <3
- Gary
Comments
Looking at the comments section, a lot of people feel the same way as I do, but I figured I'd add my voice to the pile. I came here to support the game and the high level of quality that I've seen so far...and I would love nothing more than for you to do whatever you need to maintain that quality AND support your own mental health. And that mental health is the non-negotiable half of that, so do whatever you gotta do my man
Daily Bread
2024-12-24 19:02:21 +0000 UTC[quote] I'm getting a little depressed again about the pacing of this update. I constantly fall short of my own assigned quotas and just can't seem to escape from this slump. I want to make clear that progress is still being made, but it's so much slower than it should be. [/quote] You'll build negative habit that way. - Your brain will start to associate working on the game with 'bad feelings' you experience during/after/thinking about it. - It'll start to make excuses for you to NOT work on it. - You'll start evading opening an app you work in. - Then not go into the room you work in. - Then even look in that direction. - Then just plainly go out of bed. That's what people call 'burn out' - and it's pretty easy to counter: Just make sure that your every interaction with your work is 'positive' (for your brain - the feeling after - not in some general sense). You can think of it like exercise: If you run til you want to vomit every time - it doesn't matter what sort of 'determination' you have there. It is finite. And you will chip at it over time. You WILL stop running - and you'll be left only with the trauma of the sense of vomit every time you even think of exercising in the future. But if, in 15-30 min after every run, you just beam with energy and can't stop jumping at one place - if you feel good after EVERY run - then you will run even at your 90s. It WILL become an addiction. //Just remember: no negative reinforcement will help your productivity. 'Guilt' the least of all.
Andrey Lap
2024-12-17 03:35:46 +0000 UTC
