Status update: "Shit, meet Fan."
Added 2020-07-20 17:57:55 +0000 UTCSo, many of you will probably notice (or not) that I've been even less consistent than usual the past 3 months. Things haven't been great for my mental health, and is likely to get worse before it gets better.
At first it was just a feeling of burnout after finishing Belated Gift and a feeling of refusal for anything comic. I'd worked through much of that and got a chunk of my mojo back.
Then it was mutually and conclusively ending an on-again off-again relationship. This affected me a lot more than Id expected, on top of the general state of the planet right now, but I was starting to get back to feeling capable again.
And then I get a call from my mom saying that we needed to talk, and those words never mean good things. She's been fighting breast cancer for the past nearly 2+ years, and after a relapse, was feeling a little strange so got another brain CT a year after the last one. Now there's a 6cm brain tumor that has remarkably gone unnoticed and largely unaffecting her functionally to the doctor's surprise, as well as a scattering of 9-12 other specks.
Suffice to say, things don't look good. Had an emergency family gathering to keep everyone up to date, with the takeaway being that she's going to try a hail-mary of direct radiation treatments to the large tumor, but with an estimated couple of months left, to be prepared for the inevitable. There was an intense thunderstorm the minute everyone arrived, even knocking out the power shortly after.
I've never seen such pathos. Truly a sick cosmic joke.
I'm going to be spending as much remaining time as I feasibly can with her until then, and this will undoubtably affect my work, but I'm going to try.
Comments
Take all the time you need
Garuger
2020-07-21 07:24:31 +0000 UTCShit being you right now. But hey ! Try to see the silver lining in things to stay positive. Yes it sucks that bad stuff happens in your live, griev, cry, but then get back up again and move forward again ! You can do it , i belive in you !
Namel909
2020-07-21 04:39:17 +0000 UTCWe hope everything will be fine.
Ilyas Khairullin
2020-07-21 03:47:43 +0000 UTCYou'll certainly continue to have my support. And I'm happy to wait. <3 Best wishes to you and your family.
Hidoragon
2020-07-21 03:35:28 +0000 UTCHang in there and take your time
Kazard
2020-07-21 00:34:23 +0000 UTCThere is always hope, no matter how dark the tunnel. I wish you and your family the best. My prayers will be with you and yours.
Drfman
2020-07-20 23:34:21 +0000 UTCI can only echo what other people have said better, but even so: This is awful news. I hope your mum is able to pull through, and that you get as much time with her as humanly possible. The art can wait until you're good and ready to deal with it; this kind of confluence of horribleness would be a blow to anyone. Be well, stay strong, and don't hesitate to lean on family and friends for support if you need to.
Rarden
2020-07-20 21:21:09 +0000 UTCFamily first, go be with your mom.
Timithios
2020-07-20 21:04:56 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry to hear all this, my heart goes out to you. Spend as much time as you can with her. We'll still be here.
minoan
2020-07-20 20:02:50 +0000 UTCThis is terrible to hear :< Go. Be with her. God knows there are a number of family members I wished I could have spent more time with in their final days; NO ONE should be deprived of that time, for any reason.
eqlipse
2020-07-20 19:53:09 +0000 UTCIt's so sad to hear ... We are very sorry about the circumstances that have happened in your life lately. For now, stay with your family as much as possible.
VitAnyaNaked
2020-07-20 19:28:56 +0000 UTCMy God, when it rains... I'm so sorry to hear about this tragic news, and I wish you and your family the best in coping with this. We're all here for you, and send our prayers and wishes your way. Take all the time you need; we will still be here when you return. <3
LightsGaBlinken
2020-07-20 18:54:00 +0000 UTCTake all the time that you need. I can't speak for everyone, but you already have dealt with so much and i hope you know how much we appreciate and care for your well-being above all else. Do what needs to get done, and I'm sure we'll be here for you when you decide to return. The largest hug goes out to you and your family.
Lenz Steinbacher
2020-07-20 18:10:42 +0000 UTCHonestly, whatever the circumstance may be, this can wait. I don't speak for anyone here but, I for one can wait as much as you deem necessary as real life always takes priority. That includes how you feel. No need to push yourself to do something that might stress you more than you already are and, by the sound of it, it doesn't even categorize as the sickest of jokes. Been there, done that, not easy. I shall be praying for this. The best of luck and wishes to you and your family.
Jake
2020-07-20 18:04:01 +0000 UTCSorry to hear about all that stuff that has been affecting you man, that's really rough. I truly hope things take a turn for the better for you.
Ghost909
2020-07-20 18:03:04 +0000 UTCYou do what you feel you can, but ultimately your job right now is to be there for you and your family. Please let us know if there is something we can do to help!
Sam Hat
2020-07-20 18:00:24 +0000 UTC
