HOF

Current state and future

Added 2020-12-02 19:41:12 +0000 UTC

Hey guy's.

How are you? First of all, thank you once again for your extremely generous support.

I have... really been stuggling with my drawing. I feel like i have lost the fun completely.

I've spent the past two months worrying about it and making myself absolutely miserable with it.

After coming back from my trip in september i had thought, no i had hoped to feel reinvigorated but this turned out to not be the case.

After that the regular slog of life kicked back in, my job has been draining, my father had an accident, the pandemic is still abroad and i just feel liess and less inclined to do anything with my time and my life.

And while i try to pick up the pen every single day i just find it frustrating and difficult and it's eating at my constantly.

I want to keep doing what i'm doing. Not only for you but mostly for myself.

But then why am i not doing it?

Alot has been going through my head. Am i depressed? Do i have ADD? Or is it something else.

I cannot but my finger on it and to make matters worse i have this patreon and i'm receiving... essentially donations and i just dont feel deserved of them.

Righ now it's december 2nd and i am going to try, as hard as i can. To produce content this month, and find the fun and just go fucking do this.

If i cant, and i fail... well... i'm not even sure what i'll do.

Chances are this will be the last month i'll leave this patreon open.