Life update 🌧️

Hi patronites 💜

I know I’ve been sharing bits of what’s been happening lately, but the truth is… it wasn’t enough to explain everything that’s behind the delays and my absence this month. And I needed to give you a real update, raw and honest...

This month has been a storm. From the very beginning, I had to deal with situations that demanded all of my time, energy and emotional strength. And not even my own problems... but the ones that other people caused and left for me to fix. People I deeply care about, who keep making irresponsible choices and expect me to carry the weight for them.

And I do. Again and again. Even when it hurts. Even when I know I shouldn’t. Because unfortunately, I knew I was the only one able to do something about it. And sometimes I feel like I’m only here to clean up other people’s mess. To solve, to pay, to rescue. And I ask myself a million questions… Why is it so hard to set boundaries? Even when we know we have to. Because otherwise, people keep stepping on us. And honestly? That kind of situation is way too familiar for me. It’s like I never learn.

Then I ended up getting sick again. My throat is always the first to go when I hold in too much. I "swallow" my thoughts and emotions, quietly, until my body screams. But Dani is "strong", right? Danielle can handle everything alone... But I’m tired of being “the strong one”. I didn't want to be that strong. Not all the time.

And this month… it was just too much. June hurts like hell.
So many triggers... Nightmares almost every night, waking up crying from dreams that feel too real. There are days I feel exhausted before my day even starts ❤️‍🩹

June is the month when the fight for Lia began. She passed away on June 2nd, just after midnight, but the whole day of the 1st was already dedicated to saying goodbye. And in the week before that, we fought so much to keep her alive... She would’ve died on June 29, the same day Duda passed away, but I guess both me and her couldn’t let that happen. We just couldn’t. So we managed to get her a few extra days, but no matter how hard we tried, we couldn’t save her 🥀 Because the truth is… her time was already up. And I know that 😞 But when you love that deeply, how do you not fight? How do you not beg the universe for just a little more time?

And speaking about that. June 29 is coming again. It's now been 5 years since I lost my brother... I still remember Bruna’s voice on the phone, telling me he was gone. Her words still echo in my heart, stuck in my throat.
He was my lighthouse. And when a ship loses its light… it drifts.
I drifted for a long time. Sometimes I still do.

I have this thing where I want to save everyone.
But how can I, when I’m barely saving myself? When I couldn’t do anything to save the ones who mattered the most?

And on top of all that… there’s the rain. Again. And with it, a storm of emotions.
Many cities are flooding very quickly. And I feel like I’m bracing for impact. I don’t want to believe this is the new normal... But maybe it is 💔 The world feels sick. And so do the people in it. It’s overwhelming.

I wanted to say all that, just for you to know, that I've been in a bad place mentally. And all of this affected my work. My focus. My motivation. I even had to take a few extra therapy sessions just to... breathe again...

But well, I know there are still a few pending things around here, and I’m really sorry for the delays ☹️ I’m finishing the remaining May rewards this week and I’ll update the Dropbox as soon as everything’s ready. There's still many prints to sign, but I couldn't do it now... There's May 24 rewards to finish editing as well. Not to mention some other sponsored or OF content that I owe... so yes, I’m really behind. But I’m getting there 🥺

Thank you for sticking with me , even when I can’t show up as the “best” version of me.

New content is on its way. But before posting about it, I really needed to vent.
Thanks for reading me 🥺

Love you guys.
I hope your June has been kinder than mine ❤️

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Versão curtinha em português pros BR que ficaram com preguicinha de ler 😅:

Esse mês tá sendo um absurdo de ruim. Tive que lidar com situações familiares pesadas, fiquei doente, a ansiedade voltou com tudo e o mês de junho, por si só, já é cheio de gatilhos. Ainda estou finalizando o pouco que ficou pendente de Maio, tudo será entregue nos próximos dias e o Dropbox será atualizado 🙏 Obrigada por ficarem, mesmo quando eu tô meio ausente. Isso significa muito pra mim ❤️
Ahh, e tem conteúdo novo chegando em breve 🥰