sonderlust

oculus

new york city — shot on 35mm film

perfect

I hate when people tell me I’m perfect 
It makes me cringe 
I hate when things are said that are so strikingly untrue and meant to be a compliment 
Falsities aren’t a compliment
It bothered me the first time you said it 
I didn’t understand you like I do now 
I pushed back and you seemed amused&n...

miss her

disco nap

shot on 35mm film

pain can be relieving

Starving for something more
Than how it’s been before
Come and lay down with me
I’m sorry it’s on the floor 

I’m told I’m not hard to love
But I’m hard to like sometimes
I wonder what they’d really think
If aware of the depth of my crimes

Beauty can be deceiving
A life worth living is...

city blues

new york city — shot on 35mm film

sunday morning

shades

I don’t really like the me I am when I’m with you 
I think you feel the same 
It’s weird to love someone so much but not like the intersection where we collide 
It feels tragic 
Like a movie with no clear ending 
A beautiful work of art in the attic collecting dust 
I’ve passed the age wher...

textures on textures

shot on 35mm film

milkshake 20 (alex wann remix)

Nothing new or lyrically groundbreaking lmao but this is the best mix I’ve heard of this song and it goes hard

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Milkshake 20 (Alex Wann Remix) — Kelis, Alex Wann

Single, 2023

2024-07-09 16:57:16 +0000 UTC View Post

chapstick

The world is ending and I can’t find my chapstick

A lifetime of swimming upstream has made me too tired to look for it

My lips will just stay chapped

Nothing surprises me anymore

I hate that about myself

I can’t stay mad because I understand

It makes me seem weak

But a lifetime of thrashing up...

silence & secrets

My favorite band of the past year, all of their stuff is incredible.

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Silence & Secrets – WhoMadeWho
UUUU, 2022

https://open.spotify.com...

a view i like

shot on 35mm film

answers

Why does reality not really phase me 
It absolutely does but it doesn’t 
In a way I feel unbreakable 
Held by a false sense of protection
Like a glass figurine in a glass case 
Maybe this is what happens when someone is shattered over and over 
Breaking becomes breathing 
Answers become askin...

chores and relaxing

a bit of the old ultraviolence

I’ll never sleep again 
And if I must
I’ll sleep with my eyes open 
Hire the prop designers from A Clockwork Orange 
Have them create one just for me 
My lids have lost their privileges 
Taken rest away from the rest of me 
Stolen the blackness and quiet 
Replaced it with images I s...

sun king

Sun King – LAUREL
DOGVIOLET, 2018 

https://open.spotify.com/track/2EvOCt1Crgp7tQeuuRxzIg?si=ApjLZJABRKy_c46B7RKP8g&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A6CIanwE77USA9tyv...

laid bare

matrix party - 06

shot on 35mm film

silence

I don’t know how to have silence on the phone with anyone 
Except you 
It’s weird because it doesn’t feel weird 
I usually don’t like empty spaces in conversation 
I feel the need to fill them 
Make the other person feel comfortable 
Talking even if I’m not saying anything 
But th...

genesis

she solstice on my soul till we kiss

torturous bliss

I will enforce this

forever sounds clever

fade into abyss

beyond time and space

I’m talking genesis

behind the scenes

thanks for rocking with me while I was away and not as active :)

ungodly fruit

I have no emotional connection to this song but I’ve been vibing to it when it comes on the playlist. Enjoy :) 

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Ungodly Fruit — Wax Tailor 
Tales of the Forgotten Melodies, 2005 

2024-06-13 00:10:15 +0000 UTC View Post

la times

shot on 35mm film

playing dress up

sight

“Are we in love?”
I ask a question I know the answer to
I want you to say it 
Because there was a time 
When it came pouring out your mouth 
You think saying it out loud will somehow make it more real than it already is 
You are better at hiding things from yourself than I am 
But your tactics ...

sunday morning energy

shot on 35mm film

reverence

I spent all my money on film 
Money I don’t have 
Maybe because I want someone to see the world through my eyes 
Anyone 
Maybe because documenting life in the most beautiful way I know how
Is the only way I feel I’m showing my respect 
My reverence 
It still doesn’t feel like enough ...

glow away

the met, new york city — shot on 35mm film

the greatest

My favorite track from the new Billie album. The entire album is amazing but this one hits/hurts, could have come straight from my mouth. Beautiful and powerful song. 

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The Greatest — Billie Eilish
Hit Me Hard and Soft, 2024 

2024-05-25 16:16:42 +0000 UTC View Post