Someone said to me this week - perhaps the holidays can feel so blue because it's a moment of confrontation between reality and the ideal.
Maybe Christmas is one of those few square pegs left over that we still try to stuff into a round hole, like the idealized 1950's family life with a white picket fence and a shiny red car in the drivewa...
2023-12-24 19:40:53 +0000 UTC View Post
What a year this has been! I've been so lucky to work with amazing brands like this one, Bordelle. I've got so many more of these to share soon, just deciding on my favorites still!
Btw I really appreciate your kind comments and messages across platforms. I always think about what amazing fans I have, and it's so nice to ...
2023-12-21 04:42:00 +0000 UTC View Post
What IG doesn't see! When brands send me sets to post on social media, it's quite funny... they keep sending me things that are very not IG appropriate. So I'm risking a lot to even censor and post these on there : / But I think they're really beautiful, and I decided to leave these raw off the camera. I think the light is real...
2023-12-19 16:18:58 +0000 UTC View Post
Wow. There is so much. So many sets I shared just a couple shots from on here...
I'm not going to say I think this guy's photos were amazing, or even that I remember his name.
I can't say I agree with some of the framing or editing choices lol, but I also can't agree with my reliance on "arms up" poses.
Photos by Valeria Kalabina on IG
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Another crazy week. I spent the holiday week with family, driving 45 minutes to each person's house (x 5) to spend the day then working until 2am every night after everyone went to bed. I'm tired! We did a family history driving tour of Akron with my great aunt, and it was cool to hear her stories (again, but this time wi...
2023-11-30 14:03:50 +0000 UTC View Post
You probably saw some of the first set of these on Instagram...but here's the rest of the story! Shot by Valeria Kalabina, who has been such a great new creative friend (and fellow functional ADHD-er!) in my life.
Enjoy the holiday if you're in US, and enjoy your Thursday if you're not ; ) I'm at my mom's house, we did an early Thanksgivin...
2023-11-24 00:55:41 +0000 UTC View Post
Sorry I was quiet this week...I can't believe how busy things have gotten. Went from me complaining about feeling creatively unfulfilled, to triple-stacked days of really exciting projects in a matter of weeks! I am barely finding time to feed myself, but I think staying busy has been good for me. And while I'm shooting a lot o...
2023-11-17 18:10:11 +0000 UTC View Post
I've gotten so many amazing messages from you all expressing your support for my art here.
I can't tell you how much that means to me!
I took these photos in Paris on my old camera/lens...Since then I've spent a lot of time learning more about photography, so I don't think these are my best work but I still think they are cool. I'm a...
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2023-11-08 22:48:20 +0000 UTC View Post
I rearrange all my furniture every 3 weeks in hopes of jostling my brain around enough to unlock something.
The last few weeks I've been feeling like everything I do is very pointless. I think a lot of people may be feeling this way with the current state of the world, so I know I'm not alone. But sexy work can feel especially....
2023-11-05 21:24:59 +0000 UTC View Post
It's quieter now.
For the first time in I don't even know how long, I took a day off work. I mean completely off work. I think I really needed that. I've gotten myself really out of balance...there is no schedule, there is no plan. I have historically preferred working that way, maybe because it feels more free, more arti...
2023-10-27 16:35:11 +0000 UTC View Post
Finally getting settled back into my apartment with the new windows. The sound and temperature insulation is already a HUGE improvement. Many more of these photos coming, I just wanted to get a few quick ones up here for you!
It's been absolute chaos the last couple of weeks, but I'm looking forward to a calmer November.
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2023-10-21 22:22:53 +0000 UTC View Post
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2023-10-10 17:51:43 +0000 UTC View Post
If you're not sick of seeing Valeria Kalabina and I yet, here's some more! I'll have you know that she is also a very genuinely fun person. She's very funny and goofy which I find refreshing in this world. She's obviously very talented but doesn't take herself too seriously...and she loves cats hehe.
So my old 'gra...
2023-10-03 19:05:53 +0000 UTC View Post
I don't think I shared this part of this particular set yet...in Paris with Celine Andrea. I still have a few more from that trip too!
My older sister came to visit me in NYC for the first time this week. She's been to NYC before, but it was many years ago and not while I was living here. If you didn't know, I'm the second olde...
2023-10-01 00:43:09 +0000 UTC View Post
I am slowly working through my shit, including but not limited to - the stacks of photos I have from my Labor Day weekend road trip. These are self shot, I had fun with a couple different color grading / editing ideas.
I was inspired by Nicole Vaunt and Corwin Prescott's work...they asked me to come out in January to shoot with...
2023-09-26 21:18:31 +0000 UTC View Post
Sorry for being so cranky lately. One of the things that helps me is making art with other women.
Shot with Valeria Kalabina.
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2023-09-20 17:14:52 +0000 UTC View Post
I feel angry, and sad.
I want to say that I am also very privileged, and when I complain about anything I try to remain aware of that. Pain is pain and it is valid, but there are also floods and fires and human rights atrocities happening all around us, which kind of brings me to the whole point of this angst.
This is a simulation. &...
2023-09-19 16:29:19 +0000 UTC View Post
Where do I begin...my existential crises tend to come in waves, I suppose.
I'm sure I've mentioned this before, but this time of year always feels more like the beginning of a "new year" for me more than January 1st. I don't know if it's that back-to-school energy perhaps, the hopeful feeling of starting fresh. Now that I think...
2023-09-16 21:15:32 +0000 UTC View Post
I have so much to catch up with you on! In the last 5 days I've been in the Adirondacks, the Catskills, and the Poconos - and I did ALL the driving (New Yorkers, am I right?)
I'm exhausted but inspired.
I've been thinking about what motivates me these days, and what I want to be doing with my life. Where I want to live, how I w...
2023-09-06 14:22:00 +0000 UTC View Post
I rented an Airbnb in Massachusetts with a friend, and she helped me take some quick photos. I never feel like there's enough time! More of these coming...going to shoot more brb!
2023-09-01 18:45:54 +0000 UTC View Post
This summer has been so crazy. I traveled to visit family and friends in the Midwest twice (budget-friendly vacation, anyone?) then also had family visiting me here in NYC twice. It was really nice getting to spend so much time with everyone, but I got SO behind on work.
I haven't forgotten you, I've just been drowning a bit. I...
2023-08-26 16:56:37 +0000 UTC View Post
I read a story once that a gentleman was having his usual lunch at the oyster bar in Grand Central Station (oyster soup!) and bit into something hard.
It was a pearl valued at $4,000.
I love the idea that something so beautiful accidentally exists in this filthy city. It got me more curious about pearls (and oysters), so I went...
2023-08-09 18:16:28 +0000 UTC View Post
I really appreciate all the kind words from you all. Here's a peek at a self-portrait shoot I did for this lingerie brand, OnlyHearts1978. I can't remember if I already told you this but...I met the owner/founder of the brand recently, and she is just such a badass cool lady. Grey hair cut into a rocker shag, cool lingerie insp...
2023-07-31 16:53:56 +0000 UTC View Post
I hope you're faring well in this heat wave, if you're affected by it. I feel languid, heavy, unmotivated. My only comfort lately is swimming in the ocean, which requires an hour long train journey with 2 transfers. Sometimes I think I should live by the ocean, and then I remember that may be the least safe place to live on earth in the ne...
2023-07-29 16:13:53 +0000 UTC View Post
I know it's just a couple film shots but I can't wait to share the digitals from this shoot with @smoltog! Wearing an incredible (and incredibly heavy!) pearl set by @creepyyeha.
And that last one ...sometimes I am shocked by how thicc and juicy my own butt has become 😳
2023-07-20 04:47:23 +0000 UTC View Post
